My little girl is one week old tomorrow. She is my first baby and I had quite a difficult pregnancy and labour.
Because of certain issues I don't want to go into we live with my mother in law.
She is a nice lady, likes to be helpful and involved and I appreciate that. I have one major issue though - I am jealous when she has my dd! I've been getting little sleep so dh said his mum can take care of dd for a little while after I've fed her (ebf) so I can rest. I agreed but I can't rest!! I don't know why I feel so anxious! We're all in the same house! I don't want to feel like this and it's pretty irrational.
She loves her "nanny time" and I feel bad but I keep trying to find excuses so she can't take her away from me. She posted on Facebook earlier "having some special nanny time and cuddles with xxxx" and I just burst into tears when I saw it! Why am I doing this??
When it's just me and dd I am pretty chilled out - i don't hold her constantly or anything so why do I react like this? I know it's only for say a couple of hours a day but I feel horrible about it :(