Right, ok, I'll tell the truth in the hope that it might just help someone else. I did steal some money, I was absolutely desperate and as I said above I really didn't think I had anyone to turn to. I think only anyone who has been in a truly desperate situation will understand just how awful it is, I was very close to trying to commit suicide. I stole £100 from my employer, it was terrible as although I could afford to feed my dd and have some gas and electric the guilt almost tipped me over the edge. When the missing money came to light at work, no one suspected me, but i think (realise now) that this couldn't go on.
After a horrendous day I decided to go after work and tell me boss what I had done, I remember I had to climb three flights of stairs and on the way up, I knew she would call the police and I thought I would go to prison, but I just wanted it over. Anyway, she sat me down, I was in such a state, I told her, and she just came over and put her arms around me (am now n floods writing this), she called someone else and asked them to look after my dd, she poured us both a drink (a secret stash she had!) told me that I must never tell anyone what she was about to say and then went on to tell me that when she was younger and a single parent she had also been desperate and slept with a man for money in desperation to feed her children. She, more than anyone understood where i was at that time, She would'nt to even think about calling the police on me, but sat with me and worked out all of my money situation, then leant me money from her own purse and worked out a repayment plan for that and the money I stole.
It's been many many years since then, but I have never ever forgotten her kindness. But, I wish to god that I had turned to someone before, the CAB, debt advisor, someone, just not tried to deal with it myself, not only did I nearly ruin my own life but the mental stress is the most horrendous thing ever.