Dh has been offered a new job in a office about 1 hours drive away. It is a great chance for him as they are saying he might get promoted in about a years time if he makes a good go of it. I am very proud of him however it will my life alot harder as he will be out of the house at least 12 hours a day (Currently it is about 10 hours a day) I am a sahm who is desperate to get back into the workplace as I gave up a goodish job 3 years ago as we had 3 children under 6 and could not afford the childcare . There is not a day goes by when I do not regret this decsion as I had been there 15 years and pay was quite good so by now (all 3 children in F/T school) I would be bringing home some money. Obviously the job market is very bad and I cannot get another job. Have been offered a place to study at uni from September to hopefully have a better chance of a job when I graduated in 3 years time. DH was going to finish early one day a week to do school pick up so we onlyhad to pay out for childminder for one school pick up but with this new job that will no longer be possible. Uni will cost alot with tuition fees etc so to pay for childcare while I study will be crazy money.
I really felt now I had sacrificied so much of my life to be at home that it was now my time to do something but I feel this job and possible promotion will mean I will have to delay uni or returning to work.
I am very lonely at home and although love my children very much struggle to entertain them all day on my own. I clock watch all day till 6pm and he is home and that will now be 7pm at the earliest. All my friends work or have pre school children they are busy with and I am frightned about what I am going to do with the rest of my life.
I know there are lots of people that will see me as lucky that I have been at home, I don't want to sound selfish but feel I really need to find a job and that seems like a impossible task at the moment. I am jealous that DH has been able to build up his career while I brought up our children and now I am unable to get any job and his career is going from strength to strength.