To not miss my LO now I'm back at work?

[Willowme]

I've been back at work a week now after maternity leave and I feel absolutely awful that I don't miss my LO like I thought I would.

Don't get me wrong I love to see him when I get home but I don't sit and think about him all day, and can go a few hours without thinking about him.

I love him dearly but was so ready to go back to work, I really started to hate my last few weeks of mat leave. Everyone is asking me how I'm finding being back at work, and they're shocked when I say I love it. Feel like I have to lie and say I hate it.

To top it all of DH is spending more time with him now and he seems to be more clingy to DH now and I feel pushed out, it's as if he realises or something.

Is this normal? I feel so bad about this, and it's really starting to affect me as I feel like a bad mother because of it.

DH is taking the kids to visit family during next school hols. Unfortunately I can't take the time off work so will be staying at home

I am beside myself with excitement
Can't quite decide what to do with myself for 4 nights - so many choices!!

Cinema without a doubt.

I rarely thought about DD when at work, an d a few people commented on how I didn't talk about her.

I like to think it was the utter confidence I had in her CM, and later her nursery, that freed my mind for the work in hand.

YANBU I was a bit of a sobber for the first week or so but cut down to part time and love my time at work.

I do rue working FT when DS1 and 2 were little and actively choose not to do that with DD1 til she is at school as their babyhoods flashed by.

That said I love working and love being at home, at home I forget about work at work I rarely thinking about the kids. Keeps me sane.

Also there CM is amazing.

Just want to say thank u all for making me feel like I am indeed normal. Was actually getting really down over it, and DH knew something was wrong. Feel a hell of a lot better about the whole thing now, and weirdly have missed him more the last few days. But don't worry I ain't gonna be crying in the toilets anytime soon.