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Original poster

to hate everything and everyone and that everyone would be better off without me

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takethecraproad · 30/01/2012 22:50

I think I can't go back from here, I am so utterly fed up and intolerant of everything.. surely they would be better off without me.
I don't want to be married or anything else.
I want to be far far away.

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kitty4paws · 30/01/2012 22:52

Dont know the whoel story OP but WHATEVER it is "they" would not be better off without you.

kitty4paws · 30/01/2012 22:53

I know the feeling of wanting to just run away, talk here,

runningwilde · 30/01/2012 22:55

Offload here x say what you need to say and let us help x

kitty4paws · 30/01/2012 22:56

We are all here, we want to help,

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takethecraproad · 30/01/2012 22:57

I have to sleep now but I feel so angry and intolerant
Anyway they think so badly of me they wouldn't miss me or need me.

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kitty4paws · 30/01/2012 22:59

Take :

I could have written that post myself , word for word.

Please let us help, can you say just ONE thing that it bothering you and we'll go form there

olgaga · 30/01/2012 23:01

I sympathise, have had experience of this myself. Is there a GP or Practice Nurse you could talk to about this? I did eventually, and wish I hadn't left it so long. Seriously, I look back and it scares me - it's a bit dangerous if you're at the point where you start thinking everyone would be better off without you.

No doubt someone will be along in a minute to tell you to pull yourself together and count your blessings. Please ignore them.

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takethecraproad · 30/01/2012 23:06

GPs are, quite honestly, crap.
I am obnoxious and I know it perfectly well.
I don't want to be fun. or nice. or reasonable. or friendly.
sorry.

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kitty4paws · 30/01/2012 23:09

I don't want to be fun. or nice. or reasonable. or friendly Feel free to be whatever you want,

sheepgomeep · 30/01/2012 23:11

this is a horrible horrible feeling. Ive been there recently (still feeling raw)

keep talking, dont go through this alone x

kitty4paws · 30/01/2012 23:14

Vent here, we want to help.

I think MN should be on prescription , The lovely ladies here have ALLWAYS made me feel better.

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takethecraproad · 30/01/2012 23:14

thankyou.
i am so cross and just fed up doing it all right. according to the book. the wrong book.. no one told me which book to use.
can't even articulate it properly.
thankyou for your kind concern in the face of my difficultness.
i have to sleep maybe i will be brighter in the morning.

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HandMini · 30/01/2012 23:16

Get a good rest. And you dont need to follow any book.

kitty4paws · 30/01/2012 23:17

If you an tto talk , talk, if you want to sleep , then I hope you can feel , as you say, brighter in the morning.

Is there anyone IRL you can talk to ??

though I actually prefer to "talk" on MN , I have to admit.

kitty4paws · 30/01/2012 23:22

Sleep well OP,

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takethecraproad · 30/01/2012 23:23

thankyou. i really don't think anyone can help but it is kind of you to try.

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kitty4paws · 30/01/2012 23:30

if you wan to just let it all out, we are here to listen

kitty4paws · 30/01/2012 23:45

night night

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takethecraproad · 02/02/2012 22:31

I feel a bit less negative and angry now.I have pretty much been at work since my last post. I enjoy work though it is a stressful job.
I know there is no point in ranting and getting irritable with life, it will only create trouble and make me feel bad.
So many sad things have happened, and yet all I have ever tried to do is the right thing.. I just think I have given up. I don't want to be nice , I want to be horrible. I want to show how bad I am feeling about certain things that have happened.. a cry for help, for peace. In my own life, not at work.
But of course I don't really want to be horrible... but it helps to say so

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takethecraproad · 02/02/2012 23:04

when i feel bad i do wonder tho if they would be better off with out me.. but then i can't b sure

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blonderthanred · 02/02/2012 23:20

You could be me.

SmethwickBelle · 02/02/2012 23:33

What has happened that is sad?

Life can be horrible at times and throw so much at a person, you sound like you've been coping with an awful lot - can we help you break it into pieces?

DioneTheDiabolist · 02/02/2012 23:41

You think that there is no point in ranting and getting irritable with life?

I disagree. You are obviously irritated and need to rant. So do it. But maybe you should think about finding the right person to listen.

A counsellor will listen. Not take offense. Not take it personally. And may be able to help you sort some things out.

salmonskinroll · 03/02/2012 09:10

How are you op?

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takethecraproad · 18/02/2012 22:35

hello. I have been working a lot again but am back. I have been better but still bad days.
I get overwhelmed by something bad that happened to one of my children that I feel I didn't deal with properly. And this seems to make me so angry and upset I feel incredibly cross with my dh over small things because really I blame him yet he doesn't accept the blame.
And this pervades me so that I now hate my dh and can't forgive him. I tried counselling and it made me worse.

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