We can't afford for 4 of us to go. It's going to be at New Year so the most expensive time of year. DH has kindly suggested that I go alone. DDs will be 6 and 3 so a lot for DH to deal with on his own. I'd feel terrible leaving them and worry they would resent missing such an amazing experience when they are older.
So I feel it's all of us or none of us. I'm also feeling miserable about not having had trip abroad for two years and got quite excited a the thought of NZ until I had a proper look at how much it will cost. 