I wish I could buy my MIL a Christmas Present

[Sparklingbrook]

But I can't. She passed away 8 years ago when the children were little. I keep seeing things that she would have loved.

And my Nan. The 'Great Grandma' Christmas cards make me sad now because I don't have to get one.

There must be lots of us feeling this way at Christmas. Hugs to you all.

I woke up crying this morning after having a dream about my dad last night (he died 6 years ago). I got to spend a little time with him, and I was just begging him to stay a little longer- I so wanted him to meet DH .

I guess it doesn't get any easier, especially around Christmas.

Such a lot of loss... my kids don't have real live grandparents. They all died between 2005-2009 (my IL in their mid to late 80s but my own parents in their mid 60s) and my kids were born in 2004 and 2008.) Sorry, I loved my nan, but losing her in 2003 aged 90 doesn't compare to the loss of my actual mum and dad a few years later in their mid 60s. That's just wrong...

gosh! last thing I looked at before this thread was military wives song...I am in bits, my Mum died 14 years ago Dad 8 yrs ago they died 9th Nov (Mum) and 19th Dec (Dad) My DT's born on my Mums B-day 10 Jan long after she died, and Dads B-day 24th Dec, so I kind of hate this time of year, I have tried to build new memories for this time of year, but been screwed at every turn, you would not believe the crap I have had each of the 6 christmas's my children have been effected by, because of the crap happening to DH and me.
today I booked a panto, and am hoping at nearly 7 they will get the trip to father christmas's grotto, that they haven't so far, I also hope to actually be able to do a birthday party for their 7th, but found out today, DH will be out of a job possibly in Jan but I have got to the fuck it stage! lost his job redundancy last christmas! sorry I am starting a whole new misery fest..but I am determined this year to ignore it and just for once put DT's first and hang the rest.

Life is cruel sometimes. So many people going to be sad at Christmas.

This will be my 1st Christmas without my lovely mum.
My 2nd without a sibling and the 22nd without my dad.
I only knew one grandparent who died when I was about 8 and I feel so sad for dc who now only have 1 granny.
Such a sad post missing. Birtdays are rubbish too for me. Found out sibling died during 1 child's birthday and funeral was on the others birthday. At least they are not near Christmas.

Another one moved to tears. Thinking about my nan who will spend this Christmas scared, confused and in pain with no understanding of why.

My wee granny died on Christmas Day, 2 days before DD1 was born. Makes it incredibly tough to get through, and I feel so cheated she never even got to see her once.

She was 89 but it was very sudden. Me and DH had been the last ones to see her on Xmas Eve and she was fine, so at least I have that.

Sparklingbrook

My late DFH hasn't a grave -he's on a sideboard here. But when the undertakers came to the house to collect him, I put a fragrant Blessings rose on him. I visited him every day at their chapel of rest and took a very fragrant Deep Secret rose every day for him and put it between his hands, padded so that he wouldn't be scratched. When I ran out of roses, I started to take pinks which also have a lovely scent ..... until it was time.

Sorry for being so maudlin, everyone. I cannot stop thinking.

late DH

I lost Mum 18 months ago, I've been ok till about 3 weeks ago, I'm having a tough time in work atm, and just want my Mum