I'm not a delicate flower generally, but it makes me cringe to total up the things that make me sweat and faint phobia wise.
I have a general fear of hospitals and anything medical, have been to the dentist once in 15 years and am currently trying to force myself in for a check up. I know I need a filling replacing and the only thing that might actually make me go is the thought of having to have the tooth out.
I have always fainted after injections, it's just inevitable. Have never had blood taken while conscious. Have refused blood tests in hospital when i really should have had them.
Needed a minor op that could have been done in a clinic. Had a full on panic attack and crying with anxiety. Was sent home and referred to have it done under a GA. Had to be put out with gas like a child so that blood could be taken and a cannula put in for the procedure. I can sit in the chair, but when they come with the needle, I sweat, cry, feel faint, sick, hyperventilate.
I have put off pregnancy although i would like a child, because of the fears about labour, birth and even the thought of not being able to avoid hospital procedures and blood taking. I have joked before that if I was going to have a baby, I would probably run off and do it in the woods so no doctors could get near me.
This is all completely irrational and I totally understand how the panic grips you. I need help with my medical phobia because although I am in rude health, I worry that I will need emergency treatment at some point and will refuse it because I would rather die than let someone put a needle in me.
No one in my family or friends understands this.
Those that have had therapy, did you pay or get it on the NHS? If it was NHS, was it available only because you were already pregnant?
Sorry for that long rant, but I feel I'm amongst friends on this thread. 