Have namechanged. Please help. DH has been to a meeting in London and said he wouldn't drink as he has the day off tomorrow but I didn't hear from him between lunch time and around 9:30 by which time DC were still not asleep wondering where Dad was who I had said would be home soon... I texted him to say it might be an idea to call and let us know what he's up to? He called, was obviously drunk (slurring words), spoke to DC and said he was on his way back...
He's still not back. I called him initially out of worry, quite concerned, a little bit scared in the house on our own as our baby was stillborn 3 months ago and I find it hard to be alone, and haven't been alone at night since we lost him. But, he cuts me off mid-ring. So of course my mind starts racing (I know him well... he was a bit of a ladies man in the past and has some history of cocaine use). So I keep calling, eventually he answers and says he's at McDonald's ("no, KFC!") with "Pete" and is "on his way home". I ask him "why the bullshit" and he hangs up on my saying "bye" - he does this a lot to make me feel like I 'm BU.
Anyway, I really have to know where he's been and eventually ascertain that he's been to a strip joint, I guessed actually, asked on text "where exactly" he was (*is, still there now as far as I know) and it he doesn't realist I know London well enough to know that China Town is near Soho and then just join the dots...
Anyway, I told him he's an arsehole and can't stop crying now, I'm so upset, like wailing upset, feel terrible and like I want to kill myself worthless and I miss my baby. AIBU?