I sat him down after a few cans and told him we need to talk about our relationship. I left abusive ExH for him and for the last three years have financially supported him as a lone parent working dead end jobs and on some benefit. He's been abusive but promised that was the last time. Because I wouldn't leave our discussion alone he told me I was a bad mother to DD11 months and hurled abuse, slammed doors, tried to push me down the stairs, elbowed me in the ribs, shoved me and told me it was over. He then told me it was over and left with his stuff.
I have DD1 3 awake with me saying "Why are you crying? Has Daddy hit you?".
FUCK. How stupid have I been? If my three year old is picking up on it how bad could it be? FFS. I am such a knob. I need a kicking.
I'm fucked. Please help. The house is my own but I rent from DP's uncle. I can't get back on the council list as I owe them £400 according to them for 'damage to my council flat' ie I failed to take up the carpet I put down. I have my benefits but no job as I got turned down for a job today hence the bottle of wine and no family support.
Fuck fuck fuck.