To not even try and think up a witty/attention grabbing title this time?

[thefirstMrsDeVere]

I just dont have the energy.

Please just give blood.
Please join the Bone Marrow Register.
Please think about supporting Clic Sargent. Teenage Cancer Trust. Be Child Cancer Aware or any cancer charity of your choice.

I know there are so many calls on your time and your money. I know you dont want to be guilted into doing something that scares you. I know you all care about children with cancer and their families so I wont make out you dont.

I feel so tired and I miss my girl so very very much. This time five years ago she was dying in our arms. Tommorow is the 5th annivesary of her death.

Five years since I held her. Five years since I heard her. Five years since I stroked her hair and kissed her neck.

She had so much to give the world. She was so clever and kind and beautiful and funny. So sharp but never mean.

We fall to the earth like leaves
Lives as brief as footprints in snow
No words express the grief we feel
I feel I cannot let her go.
For she is everywhere.
Walking on the windswept beach
Talking in the sunlit square.
Next to me in the car
I see her sitting there.
At night she dreams me
and in the morning the sun does not rise.
My life is as thin as the wind
And I am done with counting stars.
She is gone, she is gone.
I am her sad music, and I play on, and on, and on.

Thank you.

MrsDeVere, I'm thinking about you, your DH and your children today, especially your beautiful DD. God bless.

MrsDeVere, many kind thoughts and prayers swinging their way 10,000 miles from Oz to you.

I've given blood for years. Will now continue to do so with Billie in my thoughts.

xxxxx

MrsDeVere, your poem is so beautiful and so sad. I am so sorry read about Billie but I know she knew she was loved immensely by you and your family.

Billie's garden will be amazing and I hope you find some solace there.

Thinking of your family today, as another year passes. I bet you miss her more than ever. Her smile will never fade, and her legacy will hopefully help someone. As I said before, after I read on Billie's Birthday and had tears running down my face, I showed some colleagues her photo. As you already know, they are now on the register, and as other people have said on here, they have joined/intend to join.
That's people acting because they have seen your Daughters smile. You must be so proud that she has inspired people.
I hope that pride warms you today as you remember how special she is.

(BTW - I too can't give blood here in Australia. I donate whenever I come home. I'm O neg and give as often as I can.)

Thinking of you today MrsDV, I joined the bone marrow register after one of your earlier inspiring posts, have always been pathetic about giving blood though so you've spurred me on again.
Think you are not far from me so am so glad you were able to do your garden yesterday and that the sun is shining for your beautiful Billie today xx

MrsDV, your OP was so touching, words fail me.

I usually give blood regularly, and will bring up my children that it is completely normal (pg at mo so not allowed til next July) when I can I'll be straight back on it and have always wanted to look into donating BM.

I'll be on that register by next year.

Thinking of you at this difficult and emotional time x

MrsDevere

I am so sorry you lost your precious DD - I used to give blood then stopped - you have prompted me to find out when they are in my area and start again!!

I am running race for life - I shall think of your dd!!

God bless xx

8 mo old DD is currently very confused as to why she has just been wrestled away from her toys for a big cuddle with her soppy, tearful mother.

Much love. xx

I know I am supposed to be doing the garden, and I am, but..

I have just found a dear little mouse. Next doors cat had it and it was alive. The cat wasnt going to kill it and I couldnt bear it to die all cold and alone on the green.

I know its going to die but its in a warm box with some water and budgie seed and some bamboo leaves to keep it warm.

Poor little thing. I cant bear the thought of anything dying alone and scared. Not today of all days.

Not anything or anyone.

Thank you for all your lovely thoughts and messages. I am slightly deranged today but I hope you will understand.

MRSD & Billie x

Thinking of you and your family today. xx

Thinking of you, and your children, and your garden. x

MrsDV am thinking of you and your family and your beautiful daughter today.

I will do both the things you ask xx

Unfortunately I'm another one whose blood they won't take...I was a donor for years before they tightened up the regulations in light of CJD. I had a transfusion myself in the 80's so I'm deemed unsafe. I will however remind my husband that he can donate.

Your daughter was so very beautiful MrsD and I'm just so sad and sorry for you. I'm sending much love from another corner of the world. Xx

Thinking of you & I promise I will register to give blood

x

Perfectly understandable MrsDV.

I do hope the mouse is ok, even if it isn't you have been so wonderfully kind caring for it like that

I hope someone is taking good care of you today, like you do for everyone and everything else.

Sending love to you x

I am in floods thinking of you with the little mouse. Made a donation xxxx

Thinking of you and your brave, beautiful daughter today MrsD xx

Details here on how to join the bone marrow registry and how to donate.

Apols if this has been on further up the thread.

Blood donor helpline 0300 123 23 23 for anyone who wants to join to donate blood and to talk about stem cell/BMD.

Bumping this for Mrs DeVere and Billie.
If you have a mo, please click on the link above, and consider being on the registry.
5 minutes of your time could maybe save a life in time......

:( so so sorry about your little girl I cannot imagine and just thank my lucky stars for what I have. Already a blood donor but will certainly look into becoming a bone marrow donor.

How are you feeling today Mrs D? I do hope you're keeping you chin up. Do you know what a friend once said to me about losing someone? She said "They never leave us. They're all around us - in the flowers, trees, the air we breathe and the air that surrounds us". Your wee girl is there with you . She always will be.

Unfortunately I cannot give blood or donate bone marrow, BUT I will certainly give a few quid to the next clic sargent collection box and keep giving with you in mind.

All the best and take care.

I have often thought that I must start giving blood again. Your post has made me cry and given me the kick up the butt I needed to book an appointment. I will also register for the BM register as it is something I have thought about doing for a while.

Is there anybody here that already donates stem cells/bone marrow? Would really like to know more about the process from a personal POV. I imagine it must feel so rewarding. So different from giving blood. Don't get me wrong, giving blood is rewarding but you don't know when it is going to be used.

When you donate stemcell/BM you only get called to donate when someone needs it who you are a match with. Although obviously their details are not disclosed to you I imagine it must feel so so rewarding.

I have a dear friend who has cancer and has received stem cell treatment so I know how important it is. She would not be here now if it weren't for that.

You & your beautiful Billie are in my thoughts today
MRSD x