To not even try and think up a witty/attention grabbing title this time?

[thefirstMrsDeVere]

I just dont have the energy.

Please just give blood.
Please join the Bone Marrow Register.
Please think about supporting Clic Sargent. Teenage Cancer Trust. Be Child Cancer Aware or any cancer charity of your choice.

I know there are so many calls on your time and your money. I know you dont want to be guilted into doing something that scares you. I know you all care about children with cancer and their families so I wont make out you dont.

I feel so tired and I miss my girl so very very much. This time five years ago she was dying in our arms. Tommorow is the 5th annivesary of her death.

Five years since I held her. Five years since I heard her. Five years since I stroked her hair and kissed her neck.

She had so much to give the world. She was so clever and kind and beautiful and funny. So sharp but never mean.

We fall to the earth like leaves
Lives as brief as footprints in snow
No words express the grief we feel
I feel I cannot let her go.
For she is everywhere.
Walking on the windswept beach
Talking in the sunlit square.
Next to me in the car
I see her sitting there.
At night she dreams me
and in the morning the sun does not rise.
My life is as thin as the wind
And I am done with counting stars.
She is gone, she is gone.
I am her sad music, and I play on, and on, and on.

Thank you.

MrsDevere

Your DD was exquisite. That photo (on your profile) breaks my heart.

Have just donated online. Cannot donate blood, I wish I could. I will when I am back in the UK.

Take care.

Cancer Research UK supporters can donate towards research in a particular area and you can support their research into childhood leukaemias here.

Really Elbow? That's interesting, do you have a link/further information?

Lovely poem

I never knew about donating bone marrow, will look into that and have wanted to donate blood but never got round to it. Will definitely do that now!

Valpollicella didn't the link work? Here it is again. Sorry

My apols Elbow...my eyes are rubbish and I missed the link on the 'here' Thank you

I know I do this a lot.

I know I tell the story over and over.

But I just want people to know.

she was so brave. Even when we told her she had cancer. Even when I told her she wasnt going to get better.

She was extraordinary. I am so proud of her.

My girl.

BILLIE

Billie, your mum is so proud of you, you gorgeous girl.

May you rest in peace.

MrsDeVere, do it as much as you want. We'll listen 'over and over'. And we'll celebrate you beautiful daughter's life with you.

It's very Ok that you write about her, MrsDeVere. I like hearing about her, and knowing you love her.

And the reminding about donating is very useful to people like me.

Thoughts and love to you this evening, and tomorrow, especially.

Yes, MrsDV, it's really OK for you to talk to us about her and "it".

She was so loved, and you are such a loving person to your boys

This made me cry. I will give blood when I am able in honour of your daughter. I am so so sorry for your loss. I wish I could say something more but there are no words. I am so sorry xxxx

Just looked at joining the bone marrow register and it says you have to be giving blood to give bone marrow. I can't give blood they won't let me. Is there a way to get around the giving blood part does anyone know?

Oh MrsdeVere I am so sad to read your posts xx

I promise I will go out of my way to give blood asap

Really NotShort? Even if it's only on the weight criteria?

I got my mum to sign up with me, to the Anthony Nolan Bone marrow register after I read your last thread MrsDV.

For unfortunate reasons I have recently had to come off the list. But the reasons why I did made my mum more determined to donate.

Thanks too to all the blood donations - I recently needed a lot of blood after bleeding out during an operation. I've never been able to donate blood but feel indebted to everyone who has.

You are kind to let me ramble on.

It helps.

Tommorow I am going to work in her garden. Its just my little front garden but its for her. I bought a bootfull of pink bedding plants today. I got some solar buttefly lights (to add to the others) and some pink paint for anything of non plant origins.

I hope it doesnt rain all day.

Thanks again.

First ever blood donation session booked.

Take care of yourself tomorrow

That is amazing 2tired.

Fantastic.

Sorry that was too personal to me (I am so sorry, I wasn't intending to be selfish).

Not short - I was never able to donate blood due to being too light, but got accepted to donate bone marrow. Give your local BM register a call and see what they say their criteria is.

MrsDV - I am truly sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. She sounded like an amazing girl, who was taken far too early.

They don't want my blood

But I will donate.

Thinking of you and Billie tomorrow

Damn.

Was supposed to say "donate money" not that I would force them to take my blood

Thanks Reindeer, will do tomorrow

MrsDeVere, never apologise for talking about your DD - I talk about my DCs every day, why shouldn't you? I give blood every time I can (after a break for various medical reasons) and have done since I was old enough to do so. I thought I was too old for the bone marrow register now, but have checked, I'm not and I'll ask when I'm in next month to give blood.

When I came home tonight from the supermarket, DD1 was still awake. I went to see her and told her how much I loveher - you remind me why it's so important to do that whenever I can. Thank you for that too.

It wasnt selfish Reindeer.

I am going to bed now.

This thread has kept me sane tonight.

Thank you all for taking time to post.

Goodnight.

And tomorrow if you want to post, MNers will be right by your side, holding your hand. Billie's garden sounds fabulous.

Sleep as well as possible tonight MrsDeVere x