because I shouted at my baby last night 
, not even once, but I shouted shut up several times because I was absolutely delerious
have been up 3 nights in a row, hes not ill, or in pain because as soon as he gets into our bed hes off like a light. I had been trying to soothe him for a while and just felt horribel after Id shouted.
Apparently my dd (14) mentioned it to dh this morning and dh rang and said 'hello psycho' although he didnt mean it because we have had a rule with all 3 that whatever happens in the middle of the night, stays in the middle of the night (after me and dh saying particularly nasty things to each other in the night out of tiredness).
I would just like some support and to be told that someone else has felt like this (probably no one else has done it ) it took me over an hour to get to sleep because I was so upset