to be the type of person who harbours (very) long grudges against people?

[Mowiol]

I know I probably am ....... but:

I was thinking about this with regard to another thread and I realised that I am, indeed, someone who harbours actual hate in my heart for:

The swimming instructor who mocked my real fear of water

The horrible bitchy girls who made fun of me at secondary school because I was "clever", tall, skinny and didn't have "fashionable" clothes,

The boys I encountered at school who also made fun of me (because I was tall, skinny, didn't have "fashionable" clothes)

The absolute c..t of a supervisor I used to work with whose sole purpose in life was to undermine everyone myself included

In fact anyone who made my life hell and who made me feel awful.

I am old enough (i.e. nearly 50!) to be able to rationalise all of this but I still hate them and consequently feel I am belittled by that hate.

I am still angry about a primary school teacher who drew on my horse painting to 'jazz it up'.
Honestly, I am still seething.
I am nearly 50.

yeah dont harbour them (but i know what you mean)As i got older i began to stop suffering fools and weedled out "friends" who irritated me or took and gave nothing back but i dont even give them a second thought now.

BuntyPenfold - I don't know how teachers can be so cruel to kids. My dbil had a teacher rip up his painting in front of him at preschool because she said it 'wasn't good enough' He is still upset now at 30.