to be concerned about emptyshell?

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Has anyone managed to contact her? she was in a bad way last time she posted and was talking about ending it. don't know her but it stuck in my mind.

Emptyshell, I just wanted to say that I've been here a while and I have NO children, and I don't work in childcare, and I'm not a particularly devoted aunty. I won't bore you with our fertility issues but I will say that there is life and hope and joy ahead, although it may not feel that way at the moment. I have a theory that after experiencing deep sorrow and pain, we can also better feel the joy and simplicity in simply being here - I truly pray you can find peace and equilibrium in the future. I have been where you are and it's painful and lonely - please don't give up.

sanielle - I was quite outraged that someone could have said that and so I went in search of that post

I couldn't find it.

All I could find was someone asking, gently, why OP came on mumsnet if it was so painful for her to do so, bearing in mind her personal situation.

And OP subsequently hitting the roof.

Unless there was another thread that isn't there any more.

I feel really sorry for emptyshell because she is clearly really very sensitive and hurting so much that the whole world seems to her to be out to get her.

emptyshell, I think that you probably need more support than MN can offer... you sound so completely desperate. Have you been to your GP?

I've seen from your other posts that you're a teacher... are you back at work today?

Ah HecateQueenOfWitches OK.

emptyshell please don't read some of these posts as nasty, sometimes it really" does seem the world is out to get you.. I've felt that way many* times.

You are in an unbelieveably shit situation right now, one that many people can't understand. I've never had a miscarriage but have battled 3 years of infertility. So I can empathise with that bit and know how hard the struggle is. I'd like to second (or is it third now) the suggestion you check out www.fertilityfriends.co.uk I mentioned it on another of your threads before too. I like that the users on the site understand totally what you are going through, the anger, the depression, the total loss of who you are.. It is all consuming sometmes isn't it?

Sometimes the "happy mummy" websites would get too much for me and I could go on there and just vent how much I hated everyone. It does help sometimes it really does.

hi yep it is the unfairness of IF that really got to me sometimes - there are a lot of other things in life that we have more control over but it seemed so arbitary. I used to try to remind myself of all the other things I was lucky about but sometimes it didn't work and I would find myself hiding in the loo in tears at family gatherings when people were exclaiming over pregnant people or new babies...

FF do local meet ups as well so you can meet others in similar situations, if you would find that helpful.

empty It is a hell on earth the limbo of waiting, of not knowing, of losing all hope and then kicking yourself for letting a tiny ray of hope back in again.

As lady asked what are your bloods doing? have they taken them to see? If not ring up and demand that they are done.

Stay on the mc board and the conception threads they are full of women in simular situations and some fantastic women have saved my sanity many times over in the last couple of years.
Thinking of you.

emptyshell, I was one of the ones who was worried about you and wondering where you are. Glad you have been back on.
However, I don't think you are OK :( Obviously you have been through a horrible time, and are going to feel dreadful I am not dismissing that. However I think you are reading things here that don't exist, and maybe doing that in real life too? If that's the case it is completely understandable, I am not trying to blame you, but you need to see your GP. Please look after yourself.