Please help me

[Giviningup]

Hi all.

Its hard to know where to start.
Over the last 4 years my drinking habits have become worse and worse.
I binge and drink probably 4 nights out of 7 every week.
I have tried to stay off it but after a few days when I feel great I start again.
Last night I drank. I didn't have much but I didn't eat so was quite drunk.
Today I feel dreadful. I honestly feel like I should just go. I am an annoyance, I feel like I just cannot get a grip of myself. I have tried and failed dry Jan 3 times. I want so desperately to change my habits but I just can't.

I would love some advice and support. I hope that maybe it will encourage me to do a dry month. It won't be dry Jan but if I could do 4 weeks I would be so proud of myself.

I need to do better. I look and feel like shit. My mental health is at an all time low. I am just so sad and desperate. I know if I did a month off it would help me so much but I feel like I can't do it 😔

Try to do it just for today. And even just for an hour. Don’t think too far ahead. Contact AA where you will find so many others just like you. It’s a support frame full of others who understand completely this craving and addiction.

There are online meetings 24 hours a day from around the world. You are not alone. I’m thinking of you.

Hi OP didn't want to read and run.

I've been sober a fairly long time but today is what matters. I got sober through AA, I'd tried everything else and none of it worked, although AA isn't for everyone, there's also SMART recovery too.

I won't comment on your drinking, can only speak of my own experience. I could never cut down and when Id stop for a month and end up hitting it harder.

Have you got anyone in real life to speak to?
You could try an online AA or SMART meeting. For AA the only requirement is a desire to stop drinking.
I know there's other groups/books that other folk have tried that have worked for them, I can't comment on them as have no experience with them but I'm sure other folk will be along who have.
There's also the AA support line, through that we would try and connect you with a sober AA person local to you of you wanted to go to a meeting.

I hope today isn't too rough for you. My life used to be consumed by drink. This morning I've sat with a cuppa after a good night's rest. You can do this. Take care

Hi OP. We have a nice little group going on a thread called Day 1 if you would like to join us. We've all quit for our own reasons

Day 1 www.mumsnet.com/Talk/alcohol_support/4436070-day-1

I have no one really to talk to.
My partner drinks just as much and regularly encourages me to have a drink. My dad is an alcoholic, my mum is so against drink that she would probably cut all ties with me if she knew. My friends all drink and tbh I would be too embarrassed to tell them. Nobody really knows how bad it has gotten.
I really feel like I am going to be in an early grave from it all. I need to change. I want to change.
I try and I fail all the time. I loose the majority of my days because of it. On the days I haven't drunk I am so productive. I just feel sad that this is probably going to be my life.

@Giviningup join us on the thread above, there are so many people in a similar situations. There is always hope

What Minnie Jackson said

It sounds like it's unrealistic to not buy alcohol/not have alcohol in the house if your husband likes a drink but that would probably be the best thing. Instead could yo buy yourself some really nice non alcoholic drinks - from what I've read they're really all the rage right now. I'm thinking something along these lines, clean.co/products/cleang-pink-non-alcoholic?variant=39704263295073&currency=GBP&utm_medium=product_sync&utm_source=google&utm_content=sag_organic&utm_campaign=sag_organic&utm_source=Google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=K_Smart_Shopping&gclid=CjwKCAiA24SPBhB0EiwAjBgkhn43lzoEZODTldPfHVjTo9xIL4zyNnpn2Uc_BiXdyuA9qQfxJBWAaRoC04EQAvD_BwE

It's not clear from the link but it's a pink strawberry non alcoholic gin.

@Giviningup I read a book called this naked mind about giving up alcohol. Your husband probably encourages you to have a drink because he's aware of his own issues. My DH drinks in front of me but wouldn't encourage me. I think he doesn't actually want me to drink anyway really. Anyway that book is brilliant and it really helped me.

I think AA is the answer. I honestly think it's the only answer for me, and so that's the best advice I can give. Go to a meeting, and keep going back.