Ok I need to stop drinking, obviously or I wouldn't be here. It's something that has spiralled over the years so please don't judge the amount I drink.
I drink two bottles of wine a night, say 3 times a week. I know that isn't everyday because I've always taken a day off in between drinking, which doesn't make it any better.
I've just built up a tolerance. I'm overweight, but my life isn't falling apart. I have great friends and family, hobbies, I just drink alone? My husband doesn't think I have a problem, because yes I get drunk but I don't get smashed and I'm not a terrible drunk.
The next day I feel tired but can take care of the kids and the house. Nobody would know I drink this much. I drink after 6pm and always wine.
I don't have any mental health problems, I'm not on medication, I wash and dress and I feel happy. I just seem addicted to the feeling of being drunk.
The longest I went without a drink was 4 months in 8 years.
I am just writing this all down so the world knows. I don't want to drink ever again. I can manage 4/5 days sometimes then I'll drink again.
I don't know why because there's no reason. Anyway I'm just saying I want to stop right now and hopefully I'll check back here next week and I'll have not drank for 1 week. Thanks for reading.