I've been in a relationship for the last 8 months with an alcoholic who was in recovery and doing amazingly. We've known each other 16 years and it was a fantastic relationship full of respect, support and understanding of each other.
He has had 2 slips over the last six weeks, after the first he got back on track but was too embarrassed to go back to AA meetings but worked on his steps with an AA friend and meditated. The first happened whilst I was on holiday with my daughter and was due to various issues in his life, housing and problems with his business.
The second happened last week. I'd invited him camping but when I went to pick him up he'd been drinking so I told him he couldn't come. We talked a lot whilst i was away, some days he was sober, some days not. I was got home today, he seemed better and more positive. I told him I was going to go to my first al anon meeting tonight. He tried to get me to go before but I never saw the need when he was sober but I realised this week that I needed to do something for me as it was affecting me heavily.
The meeting was difficult and I'm not sure if it is for me but when I got out he text me and said he was saying goodbye, he was going to hang himself from a tree. That was nearly two hours ago and he's not replied to my texts or calls since. I have no idea where he is, if he's gone through with it and I feel so helpless.