How do I get help with that? I need to understand why I can hardly ever drink responsibly. So many appalling, shameful things I've done when drunk that I can't ever get away from.
I know the answer is to just stop drinking, and if that's what it takes, so be it. I'm sick of who I am. I only drink maybe once a month, max. But when I do, I just don't know when to stop. I am my drunk mothers drunk daughter. The arguments that went on in my home as a child should have put me off, but they haven't.
I can't go to AA. I'm not ill. I'm just a horrible, stupid drunk. I want to be a decent human being who can drink socially and responsibly. Is that beyond me?
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Alcohol support
I'm not an alcoholic, but I hate drunk me
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dontwanttobeme · 23/12/2018 21:08
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