support to get through the weekend pls

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My sober app is saying I've been sober 19 days. I've checked it about 10 times today. It's the longest I've gone without drinking in 12 years. Had a couple of low days but got through it by convincing myself I couldn't because of work the next day. I did very well to stick to that but now I know I don't have work for two days. I'm really really struggling. Thought of nothing else since dinnertime. Been to shop three times and managed to redirect myself to a different shelf and bought random crap instead. I have no support network and I'm scared I'm going to cave in

19 days!! That's amazing, what did you do to get through the last weekends? You are doing so well, don't give up now! Can you make plans to go somewhere tomorrow that will mean driving early?

I've been on strong meds for a pulled muscle in my chest wall which served as a great excuse not to drink. It seemed as soon as that excuse ended the struggling started. I have to stay in tomorrow just in case my daughters dad comes to collect her (he's only been once since Xmas - long story - but she has to be in just in case)

Can you find another excuse? Save the money you would spend and put it towards something lovely? Make a list of all the reasons you shouldn't drink and look at it when you feel you might.
If you're not working find other things to do to distract you? Have you any RL support. Well done OP

The money thing is helping and I know it's stupid since I usually buy alcohol but I don't like spending money on myself - I know, very stupid.
The only reasons I can come up with is 1) I'm fat and 2) when I hurt my chest I thought it was my heart.
I have no support whatsoever. No friends, no family. Work colleagues don't know I drink. Daughter thinks I stopped at Xmas.

1 no hangover
2 avoiding the fear!
3 better health
4 being less fat and feeling better about yourself so you WILL spend money on you
5 no lies
6 self respect and your daughter can be so proud of you
7 developing better coping strategies
8 not thinking of drinking means you can focus on healthier things
9 never behaving in an inappropriate way because you were drunk
10 being around for your daughter for as long as you can and being as healthy as you can. Heavy drinking can kill you.

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Don't cry. Please don't.
It's so hard to beat but you can. You deserve to. You really do deserve to be happy, healthy and free of this.

It's so hard

It is. It really is. Can you seek some RL support? Just think. If you can distract yourself for these two days you will be back at work then have that excuse.

And this sounds ridiculous but I've burnt the tea and I can't remember my just eat details to order a pizza and I don't want to go out to get one

I don't know where to turn to for support. I lost all my friends several years ago when I was battling with severe depression and had a mini breakdown.

I've started having decaf coffee and a few squares of really naice chocolate in the evenings when I'd normally have a glass of wine in front of the TV. I also find that having a long bath and an early night with a book/magazine passes the evenings well. Good luck - you can do it!

I could do the bath ideal think.

Yes, make it nice with bubble bath and candles if you've got them. I've never used Just Eat but there must be other take always nearby that would deliver aren't there?

I think you should see your GP, they can put you in touch with groups and give you support. I know that doesn't help with the weekend but long game you need to have some support. Can you play out in the garden with your DD? You need to chuck all the booze out, be brutal, if your will is failing you then it will massively help not to have any booze near you

The bath is running. I've done beans on toast. DD is 14, she doesn't play out anymore ☺ no booze in house that's why I didn't want to go out again. I'm feeling a bit calmer now...

I went to gp last November. I talked about my weight and drinking. She replied that I wasn't that big (I'm 16 stone, size 20/22) and that I am just depressed. She said to stop drinking to sort the weight and recommended antidepressants.

Well done on 19 days. Take it one day at a time, plan things to keep you distracted, a bath, a film, mumsnet etc.
I've done 4 years sober and remember how hard the early days were. It gets easier though and life is a million times better without alcohol. Best wishes op, here if you need to talk

How much were you actually drinking?
Have you tried anti depressants? Could they help? You do sound very low.

Your GP wasn't much help were they? Can you go back and ask to be referred to the alcohol service, they will support you with giving up.

Well done on 19 days that's amazing
Do you enjoy reading? I find that helps distract me.

I think that's what put me in a tailspin tonight. I had no excuses and no plan of how to tackle the evening. I'll think of tomorrow nights plan when I get up tomorrow, I always feel stronger in the mornings.
I was drinking around 20 units per night.

Yes I read loads! I used to all the time but tend to only in the bath now. Evenings are usually in front of the TV (with the bottle by my side).
Maybe the bubble bath/book combo can be my nightly plan for the near future.

OP, do you think going along to an AA group would give you the support you need to get through the weekend?
www.alcoholics-anonymous.org.uk/?pageid=3 (sorry, not a clicky link)
It's a huge thing to be tackling on your own, and you've done amazingly so far. Getting in touch with a local support network might be good for your long-term recovery.

Jeez OP and you've stopped cold turkey? Your GP really should have offered you some more support. That's rubbish. Can you see a different GP?
I have depression and one of my coping strategies is to plan my week. (On a planning pad and everything ) If I don't squeeze in exercise and time for me I feel truly shit.

Sorry if this offends anyone - isn't AA for religious people?