So I am nearly ten weeks into placement and I have struggled right from the start - through intros and getting a routine in place. Initially I was very practical in my approach as our LO - now 9 month old boy had a rather odd set up with a very emotional foster carer who had barely even started weaning and had kept him very baby like. I coped fairly well but had some emotional outbursts with all the demands. So now we have a good routine and LO sleeps but I have a deep anxious feeling of 'what have I done' !!!? My OH is shocked but supportive as I have longed to be a mum for many years and I have to say I shocked too. I feel burdened and that my life is over. I'm 47 as well so an older mum and I'm feeling like I will never accept the decision we have made !!! I have read on here others experiences and it will get better but my anxiety is mainly about ..... Will it .... will I bond? Will I love? Will I enjoy it ??? I'm wondering if I should call SW and say please take him as it's not fair on him !!!! Assurances would be greatly received 😐
What have I done
Abijah46 · 11/02/2019 16:45
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