I know this is so selfish but I am dreading Christmas. We have been waiting so long for a family and yet another Christmas without a family is just breaking my heart. I am suggesting to my husband we should go away over Christmas and he says I just want to run away from Christmas - and he's right. I cannot face the family do's with children.
I have a wonderful husband and a supportive family, but its just not enough. Every year since 2005, we have said 'next year will be different' and already the '2013 will be our year' has started. Its so tough seeing all the wonderful christmas clothes and gifts for children and as usual I've bought way too much for me neices and friend's children. I thought I was going to burst into tears in Waterstones on Tuesday, looking at Children's books and day dreaming about reading to them. My Dad always said I needed to learn how to dance in the rain (rather than wait for the rain to stop).
I've read how some of you who have adopted have found Christmas a challenge, as this is potentially unsettling for an adopted child. My friend who has adopted twice also tells me its not the fairy tale I dream of...but its clearly better than without them.
We have a DVD session at our LA in December and I'm nervous about it as my emotions are so high. I do want to go, but how will I react?
Oh dear, I would appreciate anyone's help or advice on how they coped through Christmas before their family arrived.