Mid 30s. Diagnosed with depression and anxiety at 16 and put on antidepressants at aged 16 (really wrong decision by my parents and GP/psychiatrist in my opinion)
I could never get off them, so for the last nearly 20 years I've tried eight different types of SSRIs/SNRIs and different combinations. I've been in and out of nhs and private psychiatry since 16 also, tried lots of different types of therapy.
Unfortunately I'm still unhappy.
Its a beautiful day today and I dont want to do anything. I have no desire to do anything. I'm terrified I'm facing another 20 years like the last 20 years. Single, no kids. Got a job which is okay, I cant change jobs currently. I just feel lost at how to make myself happier. Hobbies maybe but nothing interests me, I dont enjoy anything.