Post sepsis

[sickofthissick]

I was hospitalised with sepsis in January. Luckily it was treated quickly and I was only in for 10 days, but it was terrifying looking back. At the time I was flowing along with it all and just wanting to feel better.

There were complications with one of the iv antibiotics which caused a very nasty allergy and various other issues which I'm still managing that are being dealt it with slowly by another medical team.
I'm just so exhausted and mentally drained and down and just unable to get on with life.

I used to run and go for long walks, work full time (social work), see people, laugh, all in all a reasonably good life. I'm back at work 3 days a week and it's so so tiring and dificut

I just can't see through the fog.
I'm already waiting for mental health help for cptsd - so there's no point in asking for any help - that's a whole other stressful experience I went through trying to get seen.

Annoyingly I was coping mentally, knowing there was at least some hope that at some point this year (!) I'd get some counselling, but now I'm just physically and mentally shot.
Has anyone got some positive recovery stories?

I had sepsis 30 years ago. It did take quite along time to fully recover and be me. Around six month if I remember well. The mental aspect of it made me look at life and life choices very differently which I think is still partly with me even now.

I was a kid but my mum had sepsis very badly in the 1990s, she didn't have any complications afterwards but once recovered she's been fine ever since, she's now 87 and still walking around etc. I don't think it changed her life at all ultimately.

With work I do have a great employer and some amazing colleagues so I am taking it slowly and trying not to see too many people which is a little easier. I'm not going to (whisper) boring meetings yet 😆 and working on notes etc from home one day but it's also the guilt of letting people down. Daft I know.
I'm making it a bit of a mission to let people know how bloody quickly this thing happens and to be super aware of it. Explaining to people the after effects as well.
Financially we are, like someone said, using bits of savings (very small ones!) and will be 'ok' as long as I csn manage three days for awhile at least..but.longer term I don't know. It's another worry on top of the rest!
I'm so sorry so many of you have been through it.