I’m autistic and was diagnosed as an adult. I’m really struggling to accept my diagnosis because I feel like some of my symptoms might be improved and the diagnosis is so common I’m not sure it’s real anymore or if it’s just my personality, an illness or the way I was raised or a combination of all those things. I’m verbal, not aggressive, and able to reflect on my difficulties. But I’ve experienced being ostracised, targeted, threatened, and have had problems at work. It feels like I’m in trouble almost every week. I have a very small number of friends who understand me well, and I often need someone to explain or defend my behaviour for me. I also experience severe bowel issues.
I was advised that I would need a lot of professional help to address my behaviours and reduce being a target, but that support doesn’t exist on the NHS. I’m wondering whether claiming might make some of that support accessible for me.
I am aware that this benefit is often associated with children with more severe autism, such as non-verbal children in nappies, but I’m wondering whether it’s morally right for adults like me to claim.