Going to my work party, I am 5 mins from pulling out

[workpartypanic]

Work party tonight. It’s a hired hall, buffet, music etc.

I’ve been off for a week with severe endometriosis flare and depression. I’ve promised I’ll go for a short while (been told it’s OK) but I’m panicking, everyone’s putting photos on Facebook of cocktail dresses.

I’ve been bleeding for six weeks, I’m exhausted, I’m suffering hot flushes.

I’m wearing navy jeans, a black top, a bright pink sequin cardigan and black ankle boots. Minus the cardigan and heavy make up I’d wear the rest on a normal day…

Is this ridiculously bad? I’m exhausted. I tried on a dress and I honestly look ridiculously bad. The only dresses I have are 2 summer dresses, and a wedding day dress and just no.

I’ve also been struggling for cash lately so didn’t want to buy. technically this pink thing is meant to be a wrap dress but it’s a shit fit, my belly bloat bulge is visible when I sit down.

Are jeans honestly OK? I’m not intending on staying too long. I’m so close to just not going, I don’t want to make myself look a prat.

Well done for going but please stop drinking now.

Step away from the vodka. It will not help. Switch to soft drinks. Might be time to head home now, so you don't have the beer fear tomorrow.
Sorry to hear you have been having these thoughts, can you make a choice to talk to someone in real life? Your therapist?

I might tell therapist, I’m seeing her on Tuesday. She seems safe to talk to. I’ve got CPTSD and Kim not managing Christmases it’s easier to block it out.

Only in the moment

please stop drinking it will not end well - go home - you said you only staying an hour

I have cptsd too so I know your pain

I wouldn’t go. I missed. Night out last weekend because I had the period from hell. I was so so unwell … I couldn’t see the point in dragging myself there. I hope you are in your cosy dressing gown and slippers now Op!

Drop in for a while, wear what you like a party top is fine with jeans, say hello to everyone and then make your excuses and go home (if you want to).

She’s there downing vodka to cope

You have totally changed your story! Were you sick or suicidal it makes a difference.

workpartypanic Didn’t she say she was depressed - then later said suicidal

I’m just sitting here laughing at the “floral bin bag full of yoghurt”! 😂😂😂

Is it not the same. Endo flare up son in strong drugs and suicidal on top of that. Heads a fucking mess. Anyway I’m on soft drinks now trying to sober up a bit.

@workpartypanic did you get home ok and how are you feeling today?