What can I buy to cheer myself up?

[RetailTherapyMightHelp]

Either items or experiences

A good self care / beauty treatment. Like facial, eyebrow / lashes enchantment, massage

A massage
Change of scenery - go to the coast or somewhere with hills or mountains. Train ticket or flight to somewhere for a day trip or short break.
Do something for someone else. Either for a friend or family member or something charitable like a donation to the food bank.
Get some nice teas or coffee.

Those three would be high up on my list. Together with a lovely new notebook & pen

Heated blanket

New pjs, earrings, bubble bath

a pedicure/manicure

A jellycat

Heated blanket

New duvet cover from M&S

Solo trip out- train to a new place, lunch somewhere cute, cinema

If you like nice smells there's a brilliant offer on a Neom pod and oils-

I’ve just ordered this! https://www.spacenk.com/uk/bath-body/aromatherapy/aromatherapy-treatments/real-luxury-calming-pen-MUK200056291.html

What's making you feel low, OP?

A Birds of Prey Experience - absolutely fantastic! I want to do it again for my 60th.

A cyclamen - they are winter flowering plants are just beautiful

I can completely understand the urge to separate from even thinking about your body, but buying your body something that is aimed to make it feel good rather than looking different might feel caring for it, even when you're not friends with it. I appreciate that might feel like unwanted work, so you do you. Take care.

A lovely plant - maybe an orchid as they flower for ages
A new nail polish in an autumnal colour to paint your toenails
A lovely scented candle or diffuser to make your home smell delicious
A small piece of jewellery - maybe some earrings

As someone who also has an eating disorder and is feeling fed up (I have SAD too) I feel you! I’ve just treated myself to an equestrian style dry robe so I can be warm and dry and (relatively) stylish on my dog walks. I’d also recommend some warm gloves, anything from Online Home Store as mentioned before. I love my weighted blanket and fake Oodie from there. They have an oodie with dogs on that I want to Christmas! It’s so cheap too that you could get a few things.

FWIW you don’t sound rotten inside and out at all 🥰.

Any places running craft workshops nearby? These are great way to learn something new and get out to meet people.

How about one of these https://www.official-booknook.co.uk/collections/all-products
craft kits. I’ve wanted one of these for years 🥰