Just replying to this again (prior reply is on page 7) as I said I'd take a little look for anything more.
So I drew the 4 of coins. A person sits down, holding a coin (or in many cases I see it as something they want to hold onto hard or, even, a representation of their own soul). Kinda hunched over it, protecting it.
And because of the prior reading it makes me think of the precious ring...that isn't so precious, again.
But because I asked about you finding community... I think it's tied in with you loosening your grip here on what is toxic that you've been holding onto. Alternatively, with you choosing to protect YOU.
Like, you can't meet new people if you are golum, all stuck in the cave, protecting the ring that slowly wears away him from himself.
There's a self journey you need to go on. The hermit card but I'm drawn to the lamp in his hand. Then, sun card. Arguably the best card in the deck. Follow the light, put one foot Infront of the other until you get into the sun. There you will find happiness. And hopefully, that community for you.
It may also be saying to lift the light up and take a look at what's around you and maybe you'll find there are little sunshine's about that you never noticed.
In the meantime time just thinking, the relationship forum here is really good for advice around relationships and how to navigate things there.
Hope this helps. Take care! And don't sell yourself short missus, just because you make a mistake, doesn't mean you're stuck repeating it!