What has your OCD convinced you is true?

[Limeandbasil90]

I’m deep in a period of fixed obsessive, rumination and intrusive thoughts. I’ve restarted my medication, I should never have bloody stopped them.

I just want to feel a little bit less alone

Thanks :)

@Limeandbasil90 You're spot on with your thinking, there is a fine line between psychosis and OCD, I work with people with psychosis and sometimes its difficult deciphering that line!

I hope the meds kick in soon and help you. Sending love to everyone else too x

Have you heard of ideas of reference?

Bleed? Sorry to be dim but do you mean it affected your hormones or non period bleeding?

I hate having to take any responsibility or make any decisions in case I cause harm to someone else.
I have gone down a particularly bad obsessive hellhole over one particular thing, that I cannot name, as it is too triggering.
Fluoxetine has helped a lot.

Sorry, it started off bleeding like a period, which i hadnt had for years as im late 50s

@ssd sorry to hear that, it must have been frightening. Was it confirmed that it was the sertraline? Could it have been a coincidence? Only I have never heard of sertraline causing this and it's good to know if it is actually a potential issue.

It was definitely the setraline, my gp confirmed its extremely rare but can happen.
Another gp i spoke to about it said she'd never heard if it.

I have. I did always have an element of insight though, so could rationalise that it couldn’t have been happening, but would go back to obsessing that it ‘might’ have been a message meant for me

That’s interesting, though also worries me a little!

@ssd

www.ocduk.org/overcoming-ocd/medication/clomipramine/

Oh God, this was me when I first had my daughter. It was absolutely unbearable - I’m so sorry you went through this also.

Omg all sorts.

There is a bridge near me that the train goes over, if I don’t make it under the bridge and past a certain point everyone I love will die.

If any clothes are put on the maiden inside out, the owner of that item of clothing will die.

So many more, I’m abit embarrassed!!!

That every time I saw a magpie, I had to follow a very specific routine which involved touching my head with my thumb and finger, saluting it and saying a specific thing (out loud, no matter where I was), to cleanse the idea that my family would die if I didn’t. Awful.

That I was going to get HIV from not being at home 😢

So many of these things resonate me with, I had no idea it was OCD, I thought it was maybe my anxiety or intrusive thoughts but never dared tell anyone.
When I had my DC I had the awful thoughts like others above & still feel ashamed years later.
It can be very draining & lonely living like this

HIV was a big one for me too

Are things any better for you now?

Mine fixates on harming someone. Once when driving home in heavy rain I could barely see in I was absolutely convinced I had hit and killed someone. I drove back there in circles looking for a body and didn't sleep for days.

Also convinced myself I'd really harmed my friends baby when she was sitting on my knee and slipped down slightly. I pulled her up and convinced myself I must have shaken her. I sat at home after sobbing waiting for a phone call from her at hospital calling me a murderer. This wasn't long after my second child was born and I was convinced he was going to die.

It took me nearly 4 years to ring my doctor after the birth of my DS and ask for help, having to explain my symptoms to DH was so difficult. Thank you for sharing as I experienced this too and genuinely believed the only reason I had a child was because I was a paedophile, and even worse I believed the intrusive thoughts so much that I convinced myself it would be fine if I simply didn’t act on it and didn’t tell anyone.
sometimes Mumsnet can really be a place of solitary and it has helped me so much knowing I’m not alone in my experiences.
I took anti depressants for 7 months and 2 years on my intrusive thoughts are few and far between. 💐

I've never been diagnosed with anything but so much of this resonates with me. Over the last 15 years, I have been terrified that I've done a huge information governance leak in work. I havent but It comes and goes, and I've actually moved job to remove myself from the risk.

About 10 years I made a mistake on my tax return (only by a pound or two) but I think I'm going to hauled infront of the courts.

I have no health anxiety and my stresses are always work related. Im in a senior role and have to hide my panic. Big decisions generally don't phase me, but these intrusive thoughts are horrible and catch me off guard. I tend to white knuckle them and it does pass after a few weeks.

I'm get thoughts about suicide. I'm not suicidal but I look for ways I could kill myself (I could just jump in front the the lorry, off the bridge, use the dressing gown cord etc). When my eldest was born I was convinced she was going to die of SIDs and couldn't sleep. I also have driving related thoughts, when I'm at a junction I convince myself I have forgotten how to use the clutch. If there's is an appeal after a hit and run I worry it was me, even if I wasn't anywhere near or it wasn't my car described.

I can’t touch anything when I go on holiday as I’m convinced I’ll get HIV or hepatitis. No idea why as I know it’s not rational but holidays are hell for me!

I have to get the train to work twice a week and every single day I worry I’m going to throw myself, or the children if they’re with me, in front of the train.

Sounds super hard for you. I’m never quite sure where one condition begins and another ends.

This thread is eye opening. I had no idea and am so sorry that you go through this. It's hideously cruel.