I thought the insulin was never proven, it was a theorised reason for why collapses happened, she never admitted it, agreed it was possible?
Working as a nurse you see the most traumatising things, i have had numerous patients who have passed in circumstances that you couldnt make up, horrific, literally traumatising for me as a care giver, never mind how much trauma it caused families. Thinking about these people at significant events is human nature, wondering how parents, children, families of the deceased are coping. Searching these families on SM to see how they are is a normal human reaction. I dont search, for obvious reasons, but if she were alone, and sad, its understandable, you dont leave these cases at work, they stick with you, you mourn in your way. I read news articles regarding high profile cases i have seen, i follow updates and court cases, it affects you. Wanting to know families outcomes and how they are is understandable. Even if she went about it in ways she shouldnt, the thought process is understandable.
I work on A&E, a lot of staff prefer to work in resus, it puts your skills to the most use, can learn the most, you work alongside drs in high pressure life and death situations. There the obvious adrenaline rushes and highs, but incredible lows ytoo. But If that wasnt something you excelled in, then you are in the wrong job. That cannot be used against her, or its a negative trait in all medics and nurses who chose wo work within A&E or other high pressured unpredictable hospital areas.
Ive gone home with numerous work notes, at the end of 13 hours i forget whats in my pockets, i forget to empty them, i just want to get home and eat and sleep and wee. I take them back next shift to confidential waste, but i have forgotten many times. again, not a sign of guilt, a sign of being over tired and burned out after 13 hours.