I’m so sorry. I’ve said goodbye to a number of pets over the years and it’s one of the hardest things you have to do as an owner. When you take on a pet it’s in the knowledge that you will outlive them and will be there at their passing.
I promise you, you will get through it, in the knowledge that this release is the final loving act for an old and much loved friend. I’m glad you’ve opted for a home visit - it’s much less stressful and the home environment will be comforting. Not much more l can say other than you’re doing the best for your friend. So many owners hang on and on, when really they are only doing it for themselves - you are so clearly only thinking of your friend. I hope all goes as peacefully as possible. Below is a poem l always found comforting - it’s called The Last Battle. I hope it helps.💐
If it should be that I grow weak
and pain should keep me from my sleep.
Then you must do what must be done,
for this last battle cannot be won.
You will be sad, I understand.
Don't let your grief then stay your hand.
For this day more than all the rest,
your love for me must stand the test.
We've had so many happy years,
what is to come can hold no fears.
You'd not want me to suffer so.
The time has come, please let me go.
Take me where my needs they'll tend
and please stay with me until the end.
Hold me firm and speak to me,
until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time that you will see,
the kindness that you did for me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
from pain and suffering I've been saved.
Please do not grieve it must be you
who had this painful thing to do.
We've been so close, we two, these years.
Don't let your heart hold back its tears.