Not coping with providing childcare

[fatiguesbroken]

Been providing childcare after school for my sister. Two nephews, ages 7 and 9.

I'm not coping. They won't listen to a word I say, have spilled multiple drinks tonight, including my coffee all over my cream sofa. Left all of their tea then came back ten minutes later to tell me they were starving. Made them toast which they've left.

Just realised one of the drinks has gone all over my work laptop so the trackpad is no longer working. They did that while I'd gone into the kitchen to have moment - the youngest was bouncing on my sofa and fell onto the desk. My fault for leaving the coffee I know but I never expected him to jump on the sofa!

I have another two hours of them and I genuinely feel on the verge of a panic attack. No safe space for them to play outside and I don't drive so can't even take them to soft play or whatever. I'm unfortunately the only one who can provide after school care - no after school clubs and no availability in local childcare!

If their dad has walked out on them this will have a massive impact on them and could impact on their behavior too , maybe you could talk to them about their worries too .
id try get them outdoors as much as possible after school to let off steam too.

So there has never been any availability in local childcare despite your sister regularly looking for paid childcare for the last 8 years?

Or she hasn't bothered to look because you're willing to do it for free?