Posting here in the hopes it might end up in me finding some help
I am 25, and for full disclosure I am overweight. I know this is bad and people will tell me how bad it is.
However I feel like I have completely lost myself. I used to be really interested in sports, could sit and read a book in an afternoon, used to love going to the gym and was really invested in eating healthily - low UPF, whole foods etc.
Over the last few months I have lost all my interest in everything. Would happily lie in bed all day. I have no passion to watch the sports I used to, I have no interest in them. I'm irritable, can't sleep, and I feel like everyone hates me. I feel like I'm letting everyone around me down.
I use all my energy to go to work. After work I'm drained, I don't want to do anything.
I lost 5 stone, and got down to 19st7. It was my lowest weight in years and I was SO proud and excited to carry on. I've put on over a stone again. I know it's bad, but I have no motivation to go to the gym. Everyone says "just force yourself" but it's so hard. I'm tired down to my bones.
I know if I go to my doctor I'll be told to exercise and eat healthy, but I just feel like a shell of a person. I feel empty, I have nothing. I am nothing. I don’t know where to turn or what to do, without being told it's all due to my weight and I need to stop being lazy. I feel broken