We have lived in another country since our mid 20s. Have a lovely home, good jobs and a really nice lifestyle. I always missed people but never really felt homesick. We are lucky family come to visit us.
Since having a baby and my mum visited for 3 weeks, I haven't been able to pick myself back up. I have been diagnosed pnd. I cry most days. I miss my parents so badly and my in-laws also. We recently visited the uk and know the lifestyle would be a huge adjustment for us but we were constantly surrounded by family and old friends (holiday mode - probably not an accurate representation of what real life would be like!).
But.... I am so lonely on mat leave. I do activities and walks everyday . Have met some lovely mum friends but I would love to spend the days with my own mum. I dread going back to work with no support system from family and how we are going to manage sickness, no real break etc (stupidly didn't quite realise before baby!). I am already exhausted.
I feel like pnd is clouding my thinking and I just don't know if we should look at uprooting our whole life back to the UK or is this just reality with a baby and I should be lucky how good we have it. My partner is great. He would consider moving if I really wanted but he is happy here and thinks it's best long term for us and our baby (deep down I know he's right but it doesn't make everyday any easier).
My parents do plan to move here but due to visa wait it is estimated another 4/5 away (minimum) and very expensive(they have paid a small first instalment so far) I feel like I can't wait this long. They would be gutted as do want to be here.
Not sure my real reason to post, maybe just for shared opinions....