I found out I didn’t get an internal role - a role which I am currently doing. Only difference was contract and overall job security. All responsibilities and duties I have been doing for almost 2 years . The role came out last year and I had applied back then but a 'mix up' with a previous manager meant I missed out on the role. She apologised for her error and then few months later was replaced. New manager has been good and I felt, we had a good working relationship. I've been happier at work under the new management and felt I had grown in confidence.
There has been frustration regarding the new manager, that she lacks taking charge and is easily swayed by colleagues. So when she said during the feedback that it was the other interviewer (never met or seen this person before and has nothing to do with our department) felt I had no personality and was very formal, I was taken back slightly. Manager said it would have been nice to see more of my personality in the interview rather than 'answering the questions and getting to the point'. I'm not to sure what that mean if I'm being honest!
I was told my interview was outstanding but there was someone else who scored a few points more. This person does not currently do the job I'm doing but work for the organisations, so feels a bit crap that I didn't score high enough for a role I already do, particularly against someone who is unfamiliar with the way it all operates.
Before I applied, I made a list of Pros and Cons and honestly, my current position had more pros... but in terms of job security, the new role had the upper hand. Hence why I applied. I have plenty of experience, completed further studies so now have a qualification in a specialism (the only person to have this in our team). I've also taken on additional responsibilities' and trained the new trainees. Without blowing my own trumpet, the type of work I do has a mix of patient facing and liaising with other professions and I get glowing feedback. I've had people request to the manager if I can be on their department. It’s an emotionally challenging job and I thought I was good at it.
Without being outing I think a lot of it comes down to money, - it’s complicated but I am more 'expensive' to the organisation. I am also the youngest of my team and I know they will never say it, but I do think whether they 'worry' I'll go off on maternity etc. and they'll have to recruit again and all that. It's just a niggling feeling I had.
The difficult part is this is not the first time it has happened. The mix up last year and now not getting this, it just feels slightly embarrassing? Manager has also followed up if I'd be interested in an opportunity to train the new person?!
And a part of me (my ego I guess) wants to look for other jobs, but the thing about the job is that it really works well in terms of managing childcare etc. I also do love the job itself and the patients.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for - just wanted to get it all out!