This week, for the first time, I have considered leaving teaching.
I work in a tiny school with mixed age classes. I found out how many children have put us as their first choice for reception in September and that 50%of them (4/8 )already have an EHCP.
While this is great that they are getting the support needed so early, it's probably that their needs are severe.
We have 2 children in our current reception class already with an EHCP and one of them is non verbal and in nappies. He has just been refused a place at his nearest SEN school as they say he doesn't fit the cohort and they can't meet his needs.
We can't either ....but that's ok apparently!
There are also 2 other children who may / may not have SEN but require significant support and interventions.
There are 5 members of staff in this class for 3 year groups (R, 1 and 2) and 22 children.
I teach year 3/4, with a shared TA across KS2, so in a couple of years I may have my own TA ( if we can recruit one as we tried recently and got 3 unsuitable applicants who only applied as they were made to by their work coach) but potentially also 6 children with EHCPs out of 15/16.
I am mentally exhausted - I am working so hard in the classroom to be inclusive and adapt the learning, have accessible enhanced provision etc (all of which takes lots of time) as well as plan and teach for the rest of my non SEN cohort already and I only have 3 children with SEN (no EHCPs) this year.
The thought of this (and the paperwork, meetings etc) potentially doubling - I just don't think I can.
I also spent my own money buying some bread and cheap cereal on my way into work yesterday as 2 children in school keep complaining of hunger and are having no breakfast.
Earlier this year I gave one my daughter's old coat and a pair of wellies.
All of this is wearing me down. Why would anyone choose to do it if they can earn more in an easier job? My own older children think it's mad that anyone would want to.