It's 1am, why are you awake?

[JustFrustrated]

I'll start.

A virus has swept through our house since week before Christmas.

DH first, followed by me 48 hours later. A speedy but harsh 4 day illness which left us exhausted but "recovered".

The weird thing was, how exactly mine copied his to the hour. Never experienced it before, identical in swiftness and severity.

We were not. He has progressively gotten worse and is back to a sky high temperature and a racking cough (not COVID, confirmed) and is going to see the GP tomorrow.

Eldest came down with it 3 days ago and is now mildly on the up, her temperature has dropped below 40 for the first time.

Which brings me to me, who is currently curled up on the sofa, with a hot water bottle on her ear having gotten up to take codiene because I can feel the build up to my eardrum rupturing, because unlike most children, I never grew out of it.

So I'm thoroughly fed up, in absolute agony and just waiting for the relief following what I already know is going to be a lightning rod of white hot pain through my skull.

So why are you reading this? Why are you awake?

Worry over ill and aging parents and wondering if I’ve done enough for them and then being angry at the guilt because they were not good parents when I was growing up.
And then a new set of worries about whether I’ll be relieved or bereft when they go because I’ll no longer have the guilt but I’ll also never have the parents I wanted.

Dysfunctional families are the gifts that never fucking stop giving.

Sorry to everyone feeling unwell, hope you all feel better soon. I'm awake as tomorrow is my first day back at work after Christmas and I always struggle to sleep before going back, working myself up about the email armageddon waiting for me(should probably be surfing job pages rather than Mumsnet!)

Had a nap at 8pm and woke at nearly 11pm. Have to be up at 7am. Just not tired enough to sleep yet.
Sorry for all those who are in pain or worrying,I hope you get some rest soon.

Just got home after a very busy shift . Despite the 100 mile drive home have still got squirrel brain so just winding down so I can sleep. Have to be up at 0700 to go back again .

retired on 1st December and since then sleep schedule has been buggered up.

@Peckhaminn · Today 01:16

Breakup

Sorry to hear that.

My reason for being awake is the usual severe backache and feeling down.

I'm not able to sleep, worrying about a message from our ex DiL telling us to stop sending birthday and Christmas gifts/cards to our grandson.

I hope you all feel better soon!
I'm on steroids which have stopped me sleeping. Trying to relax by listening to Audible but somehow still end up on MN...

Be kind to yourself 🌸

Normal for me, I read for 3/4 hours a night. I sleep in increments of 2 hours which is rubbish. Nothing helps this sorry plight. Luckily I can usually lie in till 9ish.

@Rattenbury thank you!

A mixture of fibromyalgia and the fact DH didn't get home from work until around an hour ago and I can't sleep until I know he's home safe. It then takes me a while to unwind, and I'm struggling with that today after an argument with 19yo DD earlier as I'm overthinking everything.

I'm on bedrest due to illness and I nap a lot during the day.
Plus I think steroids have messed my sleep.
Plus I worry too much.

Just finished planning and preparing resources for tomorrow's lessons -hang on, not tomorrow: it's technically later on this morning.
It's busy at work with mentoring a trainee, auditing resources this week and writing a big policy document, but the basics still need to get done -it's been a long night.

Worried about my daughter who seems unhappy and won’t talk to me about it. Stressed about money. Thinking about the future and how I’m going to manage. Dreading my emails tomorrow.

life just feels really overwhelming right now.

Almost always awake at this time. Have difficulty getting to sleep so need to be really tired before I come to bed. MN is a way of relaxing.

My boyfriend died out of the blue 3 weeks ago, I was getting better, had a really good day today but this evening found photos I haven't seen for ages of the start of our relationship and tonight I am broken

I'm worried about OH, he has been diagnosed with cancer and the treatment is gruelling. I hate seeing the pain etched into his face.......

So sorry for this. How distressing for you. With sympathy💐

Stressed about work. Now stressed about not getting enough sleep for work.

miserable Christmas. Not rested and now just stressed.

I'm also up with a rotten cold and suspected ear infection. So painful. Do I need antibiotics or will they just roll their eyes at me?

So many rotten bugs about. Passing you all a cup of tea.

Been suffering with insomnia since the week before Christmas, a mixture of having a really nasty cough and also some shit on my mind. I really need to get back into a routine from next week.

How awful, sending love xx

@MissMarplesGoddaughter so stressful and worrying for you.

@Changeforthis79 that is heartbreaking.

I'm so sorry to hear that from both of you. Sending you lots of love.

Ear infections should be taken seriously, do get antibiotics.