How do you feel about it?
Me? Not so good, but I'm trying really hard to be positive. I keep telling myself it's a privilege etc, but it seems to he on my mind a lot and not in a positive way.
I know everyone says this, but I don't feel this age at all. I feel in my 20's. My only dc will also be turning 18 this year and that's another milestone I just don't feel ready for. I've been a sahm for almost the entire time and I haven't got a clue what I want to do with my life. I assumed I'd have more dc, but it looks like that won't be happening and is probably for the best now, given dc age (and mine I guess), but I'm still broody as hell. I don't want an empty house.
I'm a bit obsessed about the ageing process too and get really down about my thinner hair, baggy eyes, saggy jowls etc. Constantly on the look out for the latest gadget or serum to slow this down, but I know it's a battle I ultimately won't win.
Life just seems to have really sped up this past decade. Why does it feel like that, the older we get? A year now feels like a couple of months - gone in a flash. I think I just feel a bit out of control. I wonder if it feels slower for people who live in the now. I'm very much a dweller of the past, fearful for the future type.
I need to change my mind set, I know, but I don't really know how. Is it possible?
DP has actually organised a lovely get away to celebrate, but I can't seem to find a way of looking forward to it. I feel ungrateful on so many levels.
Anyway, if you can relate or even better, if you're turning 40 this year (or have done recently) but actually feel fab, please share your thoughts. I would love to find a way to embrace this and actually look forward to it.
TIA