So a bit of background history first of all. I'm 22 years old and have a 19 month old boy. I live with my mother and I always had done for support. I suffer severe mental health and always have done from a young age. I suffer adhd and ocd and severe depression. I've also had trauma from my child's father which I think I talked about before in a previous post. Everyday is a struggle for me and motherhood is a big struggle. I struggle to get up everyday most days I just want to lie in bed (but I don't) most days I don't want to be around anyone I want to be alone. I don't want to speak to anyone I don't trust anyone I just hate everyone and I want to be alone. I try my best with my son but there's days I don't even want to talk to him or be around him. I get these voices in my head telling me I'm not a good mum and I don't deserve to be his mum. I honestly just want to die and I have stated in a few threads before how I was struggling. My mum used to be a good support but it seems as if she's just really turnt against me. She thinks I'm being a horrible mum she's horrible to me she says I'm a disgrace and not fit to be a mother and I'm scarring my child because of my depression. I tried to tell her how I really felt the other day and all I got was snap out of it ur not fit to be a mother grow up and so much more. She thinks my child's dad is a better parent than me trust he's not. She's so nasty toxic and bitter. She hears me crying my eyes out on the bathroom floor every evening when my little boy goes to bed and all I get is grow up snap out of it look what ur doing on him ur a disgrace. She says life's hard on everyone get up and get on with it we all have "mental health" she says lie there and rot ur a disgrace and u could do a lot more for the child. Ur ruining his life. She is so toxic and no matter how many chances I give her she's not going to change. I can't take it anymore. I'm trying my best with the child but I honestly don't want to be here anymore and he's better off without me. I'm really struggling and she's really hurting me when we used to be so close. :(