I really really need to change

[Valentina12]

I’m so unhappy with how I look (and feel) and I don’t know how to change it 😞

I am overweight. I’m 5’2 and 12 stone, wearing size 14. Because of my height I look absolutely dreadful. I keep trying to diet and exercise, I last a month and i just can’t seem to keep it going.

I have endometriosis. I’m waiting for an operation but it’s so painful and it’s really pulling me down. When it flares every month, i struggle to eat well (and I really struggle to exercise with it). It also causes a lot of swelling making my stomach look a lot worse.

my skin is horrific I have awful rosacea. I have no nice clothes because nothing fits or looks good on me.

i know this sounds a massive pity party but I’m terrified my husband will stop fancying me (he’s never said a word but it happens doesn’t it). Sex life is virtually non existent (he says the endo pain makes him worry about hurting me) and I just feel so unattractive.

I’m 38. We have two kids who are 9 and 5. Life should be getting easier but I just feel a total wreck. I have no energy. I don’t know how to change any of it.

I think small steps is the key. There don't need to be any extremes.

I do have some rosacea advice, if I may:

• alcohol makes it worse, do try and cut the alcohol
• MSM powder (dissolved and taken orally) or tablets are very helpful for me in cutting down the 'flushing' element of rosacea
• I use a wonderful foundation called Everyday Minerals powder, very light, hardly any ingredients, good coverage

You just sound like you are being so cruel to yourself, and it's really sad. I'm sure you are a wonderful person and a wonderful mum.

I hope you will think of this in terms of being kinder to yourself- both body and mind.

@Valentina12 I could have written this post, I get how debilitating the endo is. I also have rosacea and have paid for a private prescription of solantra, it's amazing stuff!
As for the weigh, I lost quite a bit calorie counting (have since piled it back on though following a horrible endo flare and eating rubbish to make me "feel better". I must start again.