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Hand hold please

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orangemimosa · 22/01/2023 23:41

I've been in hospital with my Mum since Wednesday. She's got a brain bleed from blood thinners that she had to take for her breast cancer. Her eyes haven't opened since the ambulance ride to the hospital on Wednesday evening. She's on palliative care as we speak, no pain relief just a infusion of medicine to keep her chest clear.

This pure torture waiting for her to be at rest.

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fionaah · 22/01/2023 23:44

Thoughts are with you. I can't even imagine what you're going through. My mum is my best friend. Find your strength, you will overcome any challenge.

Justlovedogs · 22/01/2023 23:47

Sending you love and best wishes, OP

inigomontoyahwillcox · 22/01/2023 23:47

Sending you strength at such a difficult time. I'm sure your mother is getting a lot of comfort from you being there, even if she is not fully conscious or able to communicate with you.

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PlaitBilledDuckyPuss · 22/01/2023 23:48

I hope your mum will soon be at peace.

Whatmeagain · 22/01/2023 23:48

I’m so sorry you are both going through this. I can’t begin the imagine what you are going through - it must be so hard. Thinking of you x

Username24680 · 22/01/2023 23:55

Sending a big hug and a hand hold @orangemimosa 💐
I’ve been through similar and the waiting is so hard. Talk to her. She knows you are there. Music helped me - I found the silence very hard. Does your mum have a favourite artist? Maybe some music in the background would be nice for you both.

I hope your dear mum is at rest soon 💐

JupiterFortified · 23/01/2023 00:02

Sending you hugs OP. Went through a similar type of thing with my dad just before Christmas - sitting next to his bed waiting for him to slip away. There’s no sugar coating it, it’s just so awfully painful to be in that situation. But you’re there with your mum, she’ll know that and you’re doing all you can. And you will get through this even if right now it feels like you won’t x

SouperNoodle · 23/01/2023 00:07

I'm so sorry. Sending you much love, strength and a handhold. Xx

Jaichangecentfoisdenom · 23/01/2023 00:20

Hand hold from me. I wish your mum peace and you the strength to get through this.

thaegumathteth · 23/01/2023 00:35

I'm sorry OP. Can you play music or listen to podcasts?

afty · 23/01/2023 00:47

So sorry, OP. Sending lots of love.

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orangemimosa · 23/01/2023 03:50

Thanks everyone, it is just awful to even say that I want this over now. I can't bare to see the weight loss, discomfort and shell of someone I used to know.

As you can tell, I can't sleep.

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BlackeyedSusan · 23/01/2023 07:57

Been there, done that. And it is really difficult.

Be aware that, as much as you want her to be at peace it is still really upsetting for you when that moment comes.

And it is hard to know when the last breath is. There can be a few with big gaps between.

And it can take ages for the drs to come and certify death.

Have the nurses explained what happens?

The ward we were on had a display board explaining it all.

Username24680 · 23/01/2023 11:39

orangemimosa · 23/01/2023 03:50

Thanks everyone, it is just awful to even say that I want this over now. I can't bare to see the weight loss, discomfort and shell of someone I used to know.

As you can tell, I can't sleep.

@orangemimosa it’s not awful at all - and all of us that have been through it can 100% relate to the feeling, I assure you. You love her and will always want what’s best for her - both in this life and after.

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orangemimosa · 23/01/2023 15:45

We've had a brief explanation of what happens but we know, it'll be ok.

Thank you for the comments of support, I know we're all strangers but it's really comforting x

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Username24680 · 23/01/2023 19:13

orangemimosa · 23/01/2023 15:45

We've had a brief explanation of what happens but we know, it'll be ok.

Thank you for the comments of support, I know we're all strangers but it's really comforting x

@orangemimosa We’re here if you need 💐

crookedhoosie · 23/01/2023 19:35

My thoughts are with you

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orangemimosa · 23/01/2023 23:08

Bless her, she's still fighting. I'm amazed a body with so much wrong is still going without food or water. They have knocked her oxygen down from 6 to 4, whatever that means.

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WeyAyeMan · 23/01/2023 23:18

Thinking of you x

afty · 23/01/2023 23:19

Sending love, I hope you're able to get some rest/food and you're talking care of yourself too

bloodywhitecat · 23/01/2023 23:22

Been through similar and it is awful. Tell her everything you love about her and let her know it is ok to go. Sending you love and strength 💐

determinedtomakethiswork · 23/01/2023 23:32

I am so sorry. I hope she has a peaceful end to her life with you next to her.

thaegumathteth · 24/01/2023 01:21

Sending you love. Fwiw when my dad died I definitely felt relief, and then guilt for feeling that way but it's honestly totally normal and natural and so is how you're feeling at this stage.

Badgerloco · 24/01/2023 10:08

I have been through this twice in the past year with both my parents. I really feel for you. Please look after yourself - I didn’t and I’m struggling now. It’s hopefully the hardest thing you’ll ever have to go through. xx

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orangemimosa · 24/01/2023 10:10

Thank you everyone

Another night together, she's still fighting. It'll be a week tomorrow since this ordeal started. Yesterday we said a prayer for her and told her it's ok to go, we love her and are so incredibly proud of her strength.

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