Could anyone share their experiences of bereavement to help me see if I am being normal about this?

[FiftyNotNifty]

I have very recently lost a parent. I did a lot of running back and forward on errands etc to help other parent who was their full time carer. This of course increased massively over the last month or so of their life. This on top of my own work and family.

I am now off work on bereavement leave and feel so physically ill and drained. I was fine when they passed away, and have been very active in funeral planning etc. Emotionally I think I feel okay, but it's as if my body has given up on me. I'm so worried about going back to work and feel like I can't get through a day. It feels like that awful post covid,/post viral hit by a bus fatigue.

Has anyone else experienced this? I don't know how to get myself physically back up and running again.

Yes, although I'm finding that I'm very happy to see certain friends, that feels almost comforting. But in general I am avoiding people, and there are some people who actually just make me feel irrationally angry!

I hear you @SlaveToTheVibe DH died during lockdown and I was so grateful not to be able to go anywhere. I still don't really like going out, it is a huge effort an not enjoyable.

I am so pleased that you posted this thread. I too have experienced all of those feelings and pain etc. that you and others are describing. The only difference is that it is almost 2 years since my husband died, and I am only feeling all of this, over the past few months. I 'coped' really well up to that point. Except, I wasn't. I think I was in the denial stage for a very long time. Grief is very individual to each person. But, it is there and comes out sooner than later. Better to experience it now I think and give your body time to recover. Take care. x

I was so close to my mum

I coped for about a year, devastated but carrying on then one day literally could not stop crying. I had and still have panic attacks and feel drained

I was initially signed off work for 1 month which turned into 4 and eventually I could not go back to the pressure. I have dropped down massively and not sure I'll ever return to same level

I have ptsd , feel.ive aged 30 years and yes my body just doesn't fight anything.
It's been 2 years now, I hope it gets better. I'm just grateful for my daughter, son in law and grandchildren without who I don't think I'd ever get up
Love and hugs to all suffering x

Sending so many sympathies to everyone on here. So much grief, I hope it's not wrong to take some comfort from it...just makes me feel less alone!

I've been reasonably busy all day today (although nothing compared to a day at work) and I am sitting here absolutely exhausted. Arms and leg aching, brain frazzled!
I do not feel "sad", I just feel numb and wiped out and sore.

@FiftyNotNifty

its such a lonely thing to go through…. I find greet solace in knowing it’s not just me

I'm with you OP, and yes it's comforting to know we're not the only ones. I've got a stinking cold and feeling very woe is me today. Traumatic dreams last night too. I'm exhausted and fed up. Trying (and failing) to write words for the coroner as well as see if we can get legal help. Just want to switch it all off and get on with life, not dig over everything constantly. Going to go out for walk and hope it clears the fog a bit. Thank god for a bit of sunshine today. Hugs to all.

When my dad died over 20 years ago, I was running about all over the place sorting stuff out and organising things.
I was fine at the funeral and for weeks after.
Then in the January I woke up and everything hurt and I just couldn't.... literally couldn't physically do anything.
Delayed grieving I reckon.
Everything had been done.
Nothing left to organise or sort out and the adrenaline had gone.
I was off work for 8 weeks.
Sorry for your loss