I'm posting because have nobody else to tell this and also need some emotional support.
My husband is currently going through depression period. It's like constantly walking on eggshells. I understand it's tough on him but it's taking its toll on me as well. It feels like getting kind word or even a bit of affection from him is impossible. Today he shouted ate because instead of answering if I'm hungry I asked if he's hungry instead. Small thing but it really upset me. It so upset me because I was looking forward to spending a day with him but he was again just angry and irritated with everything that I say/do. It's unfair on me, I need to live and be, can't walk on eggshells at all times.
Fast forward, this evening started crying because of the way he was rude and irritated with me all day. He started screaming how selfish I am and everything is about me only. We are trying for a baby and I booked fertility MOT. He said he is not going to do it, and I can f** off and not come begging him for a baby. (I miscarried about 1.5yr who)
I understand he's depressed and he's not like this when he's feeling normal (this is the west in the last 3 yrs probably). But the comment about baby just killed me .
I'm seriously thinking to talk to some layers and start thinking about exit strategy. I love him, but I can't live like that and I want a baby. He's clearly not interested in having a baby.
I'm just sad. I need to live and be myself somehow as well. I know he's struggling but I need my life too..