Not a pity party from me. But I just need tips and ideas on how to cope with loneliness.
For background, I am married with three children. Whilst I get on with my DH we don't have a talking type relationship, I've tried, he's simply not interested. I have lots of Facebook friends but these are mainly school run Mums from years ago, neighbours, primary friends. No one that I could go out with, share a coffee with etc.
I've tried joining groups, I work in a big school (not a teacher but lots of interaction with different staff), I volunteer, have hobbies etc. Invited people over for coffee and cake, included their families etc. It's just not ever reciprocated. Literally never. I'm not after sympathy, because although it does upset me, confuse me and is a source of worry, the fact is that I've been trying quite hard for more than a decade to get myself out there, develop relationships etc and, I have to face up to it not happening, presumably because of something I'm doing or not doing (would genuinely love to know!).
So, I need ideas on how to cope with it. I can't believe it's just me. So please hit me with how you cope or how you think I should cope. I want to be able to leave behind that feeling of jealousy at seeing others in groups out on girls nights, hearing my neighbours with their group of friends meet up for bbqs, and focus on being happy with my own company.
(Because top of my list of coping at the moment is writing my own eulogy because I know there won't be anyone else to do it! Bit morbid but that's why I'm asking the Mumsnet hive mind).