Il try and summarise as much as possible.
I've always thought I'm a nice person,i have a good heart.
I met a guy through mutual friends.
Instantly we clicked and we spoke all day every day.
He told me at the time "I send women crazy" obviously I just took it as a joke at the time.
He told me all his ex girlfriends have hit him and he was worried he would find another "unstable woman".
We started dating and all was great,we weren't "official " but he called me his GF.
Then he started messing with my head.
Talking to other women.
Then sleeping with other women and telling me about it.
We weren't official so I couldn't say anything.
I kidded myself that it was okay and eventually he would stop.
I asked him where we were going and explained I just wanted to be official-he said he was worried by me saying that as I was being a bit too intense by asking that.
Then we went away for a break and had the best time-I thought this time we were going to make a go of it.
He said things like he wanted to be official -then slept with another woman and sent me a selfie of them both.
Obviously I was upset and sent him a long text explaining he was a joke,that he was hurting me etc -then I was scared to loose him so let it drop.
This repeated itself a few times and I would always apologise for getting upset.
This went on for 8 months.
In these 8 months we spoke daily all day etc
He then told me he was looking to date -and asked if I had any single friends.
He said he wouldn't date me as I get "too emotional " he said "I've been putting up with abuse from you for months and just been the bigger person and let it slide"
I tried explaining how he was treating me was the reason I was sending the long texts and getting upset.
He told me I should try learn from this so I don't abuse another man.
I'm not abusive- he broke my heart
I'm not abusive am I ?
There's so much more he did -but I would be here for days