On a school night?
I've had a stressful couple of days. DS1 (13) was threatened with a knife by an older boy who wanted his phone. The same older boy who tried to kick our door in a few months ago and forced me to buy a doorbell camera. The police did nothing then.
They did nothing yesterday when my son dialled 999. Didn't even search the other boy for a knife. They said they couldn't as they had no reason to suspect he had a knife. Despite my son and his friend as witness saying he held one up to my son. So I've lodged a complaint with the police about their ineptitude.
On top of that DS1 also opened up that he's depressed. He's struggling with suicidal thoughts and it all stems back to how his dad treats him. His dad does nothing with him, told him to his face he doesn't like him as he's too much like me, told him he is a teenager now so he should be initiating contact with him if he wants it and basically treats him like crap compared to the little 2 (8 and almost 7). The little 2 get everything that they want. DS1 gets nothing. They get mcdonalds breakfast every week, DS1 doesnt even get a couple of quid for a bacon barm from the bakery.
The little two get bought new toys, nothing for DS1. The little two play games consoles with daddy, DS1 gets left out. It's frustrating for me as mum to see so it must be devastating to a child.
I phoned the doctors today and there's at least a 12 week wait to even speak to anyone about his depression. My poor boy 😔 he knows he can speak to me though and I'm so glad he did come to me before he self harmed (that's what pushed him to speak to me. He wanted to SH) and I could talk him down and reassure him that I'd always be there for him, no matter what he's my boy, my first born, the one who made me a mum and nothing will ever make me disappointed in him.
He seems a bit happier today just knowing I've contacted the doctor and the police for him. But I'm still stressed so I'm on the vodka. Who's joining me for a drink?