No harm done, DD delighted to go to her DGM instead of school, but I'm feeling really odd about it. Not sure why, could so with talking it through with someone if anyone has time?
I had it on the calendar, I'd even mentioned to DM a few weeks ago that if DP was working then could she have DD.
But then I forgot. Poor DD was all done up in her uniform, we walked to school, deathly quiet. I still didn't remember. There was a maintenance person who told me it was an INSET day. So we walked home and called DP who came back and picked her up, and dropped her to DM.
She wasn't upset at all, I was in a flap as needed to start work (wfh), but all OK really. But I've been feeling on the edge of tears all day.
I don't know if it's because I'm embarrassed and worried the school staff / other parents will think I'm an idiot (that awful embarrassed like when you fall over as a teen in front of the whole school, what if I'm always the mum who forgot school was closed?)
Or if it's just that I have to remember every bloody thing always, DP could just as easily have seen it on the calendar and noticed, but I don't suppose that will enter his head, it'll be 'my fault' if it's anyone's.
Or is it that I thought I was going OK, I really struggle with being organised. I have to have so many strategies, and then I fuck up massively, completely oblivious, and it's poor DD that is affected.
I just feel upset out of all proportion and if I talk to anyone in real life they'll laugh (kindly) but I can't see the funny side right now.