I don't want to wake up tomorrow

Lily2075 · 2022-02-24T20:45:31+00:00

Just that really. I cannot live another day being this unhappy. It's torture. I wish I could swap places with someone who is dying and actually wants to live.

TracyMosby · 24/02/2022 20:46

Where are you, Lily? Are you in England?

TracyMosby · 24/02/2022 20:47

www.nhs.uk/service-search/mental-health/find-an-urgent-mental-health-helpline

If England, call a help line to talk to someone.

Kottontail · 24/02/2022 20:47

Oh gosh, I can't read & not respond in some way. Please hang on in there & pick up the phone to somebody. You can talk here also.

PeacefulPrune · 24/02/2022 20:48

I'm sorry to hear things are feeling this bad for you. It's great that you've expressed it. Would you like to write here about what's making you feel like you want to escape?

SnoozeAllDay · 24/02/2022 20:48

I’m so sorry you are feeling like this.

Can you make some changes in your life?

Original poster

Lily2075 · 24/02/2022 20:49

Thanks but ringing a helpline isn't going to change anything.

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Lily2075 · 24/02/2022 20:50

I hate my job and I'm awful at it. I'm fat and ugly. All I do is go to work and hate it or I'm at home on my own feeling like shit.

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TracyMosby · 24/02/2022 20:50

Ive been doing a back search, Lily.

I know youve been feeling low for a while and your job brings you no joy. I know this might sound like a ridiculous suggestion but what about a career coach? They could help you find that purpose youre missing.

AllAmericanGirl · 24/02/2022 20:51

There's always a way out, even when it doesn't feel like it. Nothing lasts forever, try and reach out in any way you can and believe in a better day.

BurgerKingAddict · 24/02/2022 20:55

Do you mind saying what area you live in? If you are near me I will meet you for a walk and talk?
Please also listen to the advice from others to get in touch with a helpline.

WishIwasElsa · 24/02/2022 20:56

What job would you like to do?
I understand how you feel about your appearance as this is something I do and have always struggled with why do you think you're ugly is that related to feeling overweight. Try to be kind to yourself

MNHQ

FlissMumsnet · 24/02/2022 20:57

Hello Lily2075, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.
We hope you don't mind, but when any of our users are feeling like this we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real-life help and support as well.

Some further support links:

NHS: Where to get urgent help for mental health
NHS: Looking after your mental health
MIND: Coping with mental health problems during coronavirus

CALM: The Campaign Against Living Miserably
NHS: Help for suicidal thoughts

We very much hope life looks a bit brighter for you soon.
Very best wishes from MNHQ

Original poster

Lily2075 · 24/02/2022 21:05

BurgerKingAddict I'm in Manchester

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BarrowInFurnessRailwayStation · 24/02/2022 21:11

What's the chances of you looking for another job? Lots of employers are looking for people at the moment. Perhaps if you had something like job searching to focus on it might help you feel more positive.

BurgerKingAddict · 24/02/2022 21:19

That’s too far away from me. Sorry 😞 I can’t be there to hold your hand in real life but I am here online. Is there anything any of us can do?
Keep posting on here if it helps you.

OnTheB · 24/02/2022 21:24

Hi, I didn't want to read and not reply to you OP.

I've felt this, I know nothing anyone will say will make you feel better I just wanted you to know, if you want someone to vent to, speak to, laugh or cry with - I will be that person. Not to solve any of your problems but just someone, you may need someone.

Amei · 24/02/2022 21:32

Hello,

I've also felt like this and I promise you it will get better. It might take weeks, months or years but one day you will look back and be so so grateful that you stayed.

I used to sob every single day on my way to and from work, and now occasionally il think back to that time in my life and il cry just thinking about how sad I was.

Do you have any friends or family? I am 100% sure they would rather listen to you talk about your problems and feelings than have to attend your funeral.

Is there something specific about your job you hate? It's not someone been horrible to you is it? Or anything management could assist with? Also, I'm sure you're not, but even if you were not the best at your job, it's not worth dying for xxx

Swear · 24/02/2022 21:36

A job is something you can change. Start looking at what's available, and think about what might suit you, what you might enjoy more. You don't need to be trapped in the job you've got now.

TracyMosby · 24/02/2022 21:48

There are lots of career coaches in Manchester. A change in career might be just what you need.

Once youve started that, maybe look at groups yo could join.

KittenKong · 24/02/2022 21:54

Ok - have you someone to speak to in real life? Someone you trust who will listen?

Make a plan - Job: stay in same type or retrain? Could you do a course? How’s your CV? Maybe decide to send it out to some agencies and speak to them - if you want to change direction they might be able to advise.

Fat and ugly? Well I’m sure you just have your shot coloured glasses on right now. Do you do any exercise or dietary planning? Could you decide to sign up for a short park run into he spring and start a ‘healthy eating diet’.

Are you sleeping properly? Have you been to the doctor for a check up?

It will get better - remind yourself this every day. Imagine yourself, 1, 3, 6 months down the line. How do you want to feel? What do you want to be doing?

Try to plan.

Dillydollydingdong · 24/02/2022 21:56

If you don't like the way you look, just change it OP. If you're overweight, go to SW or WW and sort it out. Honestly, it not that difficult. Go to the hairdresser. Practice putting on makeup. See your GP about depression. You need motivation, that's all. Go for it. You'll feel so much better.

thedarkling · 24/02/2022 21:59

@Dillydollydingdong

If you don't like the way you look, just change it OP. If you're overweight, go to SW or WW and sort it out. Honestly, it not that difficult. Go to the hairdresser. Practice putting on makeup. See your GP about depression. You need motivation, that's all. Go for it. You'll feel so much better.

Actually it really is quite difficult to lose weight or change how you look. And in my experience it doesn't make you happier. Clearly the OPs issues run far deeper than simply joining Slimming world or whatever.

DaydreamerBetty · 24/02/2022 22:02

Hi, I didn’t want to read and not reply. Please seek help, as others have said see what other jobs are available. Sending a virtual hug. 🤗

stimpyyouidiot · 24/02/2022 22:04

@Dillydollydingdong

If you don't like the way you look, just change it OP. If you're overweight, go to SW or WW and sort it out. Honestly, it not that difficult. Go to the hairdresser. Practice putting on makeup. See your GP about depression. You need motivation, that's all. Go for it. You'll feel so much better.

Really unhelpful. It is bloody hard for some people. Especially when they are depressed.

HermioneGrangersHair · 24/02/2022 22:04

OP we are all here for you, listening if you want to talk. These thoughts will pass. Please speak to someone in real life if you can, do you have a family member you can talk to or at work a person you trust and like? Also please ring your GP or some if the numbers above tomorrow all those helplines will have people to help.