For my grandson.
Honestly, I knew I'd love him, child of my child and all that, but the sheer pleasure that his existence has brought me is a real surprise!
I'm lucky enough to have my DD2 and her dh live in the same town and so I am doing child care for them as I work part time and they are both nurses, I offered because I had no help (due to distance ) when my 4 were tiny and I know how hard it can be. But I wasn't anticipating the sheer joy of it.. having a new little person who knows me, is excited to see me and spends his day happily in my company.
I feel rejuvenated ..we go to yoga together , we are going swimming, we walk the dog and pop to the shops and baby groups, and sometimes we just chill and he lives his baby life (9 months old)
I'm so grateful that his mum and dad trust me after reading so many stories on here (I run any plans past them first ) But I am still bowled over by how much I just love him, how much his smiles and arms lifted for Granny have made me feel like I still have a purpose in life in my 50s.
It's just like the love I had for mine when they were babies...only easier!