Anyone else feeling sad and despairing today?

[Stumpedasatree]

DC's primary school Christmas production has been cancelled due to Covid today. They'll be absolutely gutted as they worked so hard for it and had a lead role. I was so looking forward to seeing it as this is the last one in Y6.

That, and general gloom and doom are making me tearful. There seems to be no end to the current Covid misery.

I feel slightly less gloomy today. Was also very down yesterday about a Christmas play cancellation. Would have been his first and we'd been helping him rehearse and seeing mini-previews for ages.

The reason I feel slightly less gloomy is that I have Covid (day 5) and after a few days of mild symptoms (though still felt grotty) I now feel quite well. Other than the lack of smell. I've had Covid before, and my vaccinations. The first time was much worse. Cheered because I can see that one way or another, through some combination of post-infection immunity and vaccination, this bastard virus is going to have the sting taken out of it and end up as just another cold. (That's how it feels.) Of course, there's a way to go before that and, unfortunately, a lot of people are going to get it first. My husband has it for the first time (also double vaxxed) and he has been more poorly than me. First time round I was laid low for the better part of two weeks. And we are both early 40s, generally in good health. Still, I can glimpse a chink at the end of the tunnel.

Me too. Life feels like it’s to be endured not enjoyed.

@WineGetsMeThroughIt

Yes, I'm quite disappointed and down about the whole covid passports and potential removal of my body my choice.

My work was willing to pay for a £1000 training course, but when I called to enquire about it and asked what the policy was with covid and class cancelations the receptionist told me they're requiring all students to be triple jabbed from the new year.

I just want to cry. I have extreme anxiety over the covid vaccine and it's potential side effects (not all vaccines!!) and have not had one, and currently no plans to have one, let alone 3 - and potentially 4 by the time the course rolls around in the spring. I'm gutted.

Also please no snide remarks about not getting the vaccine or being 'anti-vax'. I can't take it today 😒

@WineGetsMeThroughIt It just occurred to me, would you be able to say you could take daily covid tests to prove you were ‘safe?’ Surely someone could be vaccinated and have Covid and they wouldn’t be very safe rocking up to the training course?

If necessary you could say you’re not able to be vaccinated (don’t tell them why but the fear you have is a psychological reason which is still valid).

Just a thought! 💐

Yes. My ds tested positive last week and has been isolating since. We have had to cancel loads of Christmas plans and he's also missing all of the fun stuff happening at school. He's been really upset about it. On top of that is the ongoing cleaning, distancing, worrying that dh and I will test positive right at the end of his isolation period and have to start the whole thing again. I've found it really hard being stuck in and it's just such a shit time of year for it to happen.

Yup. I’m worried we won’t be allowed into Wales from England to spend Christmas with my dad. Likely we’d get bugger all notice.

Yup. Feeling poorly from a heavy cold (not covid) and booster side effects. I am totally wiped out.

After carrying on for SO long with the covid threat it's all started to feel a bit bleak again and I am not sure I can do another bout of online teaching whilst homeschooling etc.

And now all the Christmassy plans are going up the spout. Meh.

Yes, everything is sad and exhausting and terrifying, mostly not-covid related but it doesn't help.

@SnapCackleFlop I asked about that, but sadly they said no. 😒

Yep. Been trying to barrel on with festive cheer but today it's all been too much. Just learnt another child DC were in close contact with has covid, tried to order more LFTs, none in stock. Just feels like we're waiting for the axe to fall. Would rather almost that they announced a lockdown now so at least we know what's happening. Utterly fed up, don't feel great myself, and just been binging on Christmas snacks and feeling anxious.

I am having more and more moments of wanting the entire world to be instantly destroyed by a large metorite. It would stop all the endless suffering.
I am CV ish, I say ish because I'm on a break between immune supressants and if I were on them I my consultant thought it should be ok. Due to restart soon. Though I am higher risk of cytokine storm I should think.
I am not coping well with not being able to see my partner due to covid and I don't know when that might change. It could be months and months (and it's nothing to do with me or my health.)

A woman in Sainsbury’s cafe was being so unutterably vile to her tiny child that I had a go at her.

She then denied all knowledge of saying “I’ll hit you. Stop or I’ll hit you harder”.

I know intervening won’t really have done anything to help that child.

My parents uninvited me for Christmas as they are worried about getting Covid before my sisters wedding. They know I'll be on my own. I've come up with another plan but it still stings.

Me too. I’m grateful for the booster I had yesterday but it’s made me feel poorly. And it’s the anniversary of DH’s death in two days. Bringing up my eldest, now 12, has never been harder. I’m so tired, so lonely and so under pressure. There are never any other adults in my house, I can never go out regardless of covid and now I can’t even see adults at work either.

Yes. Ds has just had to miss a big performance he’d been practising for for months because he got covid.
Now he’s begging for his cousins to be kept off school for the last week so that they can come and visit for Christmas (lots of cases at their school).
Until last week I was fairly confident that everything would be ok for Christmas, especially as our family have all had covid recently.
Had plans to go and see a band and host a house party. Now I’m just really hoping that cousins and grandparents can get here for Christmas as I can’t stand any more disappointments for the kids.

I’ve just come back from the funeral of a 21 year old, I’ve had better days

That's so heartbreaking @tunnocksreturns2019. Sometimes life feels so impossibly hard. Bless you and your son. This too shall pass. 💐

@Stumpedasatree

I'm sorry *@WhatHaveIFound*. I hope you get the answers and action that you need. How old is your DS?

I am sorry so many are feeling this way.

Thanks, the appointment went really well so I can stop worrying for a little while. We should have a F2F appointment within a month and a chest x-ray next week.

Luckily DS (16yo) is doing A Level Biology so he understood some of the more technical stuff.

At our primary school they were always going to video the concerts anyway and put them online, no parents attending has been publicised since September. Looks like it paid off. But it's a pity I won't get to see another concert for DS2 as he's year 6 now and not likely to volunteer in secondary school. I find this time of year horrible in general anyway, the dark and cold and rain just sap my energy and mood.

I am so sorry for all of your sadness and suffering. There’s no comparisons everyone is struggling in different ways. 🕯here’s a candle in the darkness for everyone and a hope for a better future for us all.

At our primary school they were always going to video the concerts anyway and put them online, no parents attending has been publicised since September. Looks like it paid off. But it's a pity I won't get to see another concert for DS2 as he's year 6 now and not likely to volunteer in secondary school. I find this time of year horrible in general anyway, the dark and cold and rain just sap my energy and mood.

So sorry for all the shit and sadness people are going through here. @tunnocksreturns2019 I am so sorry to hear that, I hope things feel a little more manageable for you soon.

@Tillymintpolo that must have been very hard.

@WhatHaveIFound that sounds promising. Is it ongoing breathing difficulties?

Hugs to everyone feeling low. I would be interested in a thread where we can offer tips to help with feeling more positive especially at times like these.

@tunnocksreturns2019

Me too. I’m grateful for the booster I had yesterday but it’s made me feel poorly. And it’s the anniversary of DH’s death in two days. Bringing up my eldest, now 12, has never been harder. I’m so tired, so lonely and so under pressure. There are never any other adults in my house, I can never go out regardless of covid and now I can’t even see adults at work either.

Is your work completely closed @tunnocksreturns2019 ? Ours is letting people go in if they need to for 'welfare reasons' , which I would think you should qualify for.

Yes. I am watching this programme about Rovinj in Croatia and feeling like banging my head off these 4 fucking walls

And no, don’t tell me to go out for a nice walk. I have walked very square inch of earth locally and I am sick of it

He has chronic fatigue, joint pain, palpitations & breathlessness. Plus brain fog. He's gone from doing 1hr + of sport every day to barely getting through the school day.

Interestingly the lady from the LC clinic said they are seeing a lot of previously super fit people.